Head up high

I've been through so much to be feeling the way I am. I wont even let it bother me, already. Hopefully things will get better in time.

Anyway, recap on my day yesterday .. Went out with Ashley & Ethel to supposedly have our christmas lunch out with us 3 but Ash's boyfriend (Jason) tagged along, which by the way he taggede along his two other friends (Kai & Chris). But of course, I don't mind. But so shame! Haha. Ate Genki with all of them, and it was shame because Ethel & I barely knew them. But after awhile later .. we got comfortable. Cruised at Waipio Park for awhile then headed to my house. The ride home was funny :P Chilled at my house. Helped Ethel do her IPod on Jason's macbook & then Kai & Chris came over. They just played WII & whatnot. After they all left, Us 3 cooked spam, sang karaoke, and took stupid pictures! Lol. Then went out to drop them off & go shopping w/ the 'rents. And then from going home & then on, it was downhill for me ;(

Woke up without force today, finally! Lol. Got ready & headed out with the girls. Went shopping at Pearls. I couldn't find anything at all! Basically because we we're mostly in boy stores, lol. But that's alright. Ate Arby's. Mhm, it was finally good to cruise with the girls after awhile. Hah! Mhm. After that, mommy came to pick me up & we headed to buy things for my brothers/new years party for tomorrow. Dang, can't wait! Big party tomorrow ^___^ Welll, I got company tonight. Me cousin is sleeping over, yay! Haha.

Argh, my brother is taking long to cut his hair & get our food. Bleh x_x But I can't complain because he's getting food for my cousin & I, lol.

AHH, okay later blog

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"SOMETIMES THE ONE YOU WANT THE MOST

IS THE ONE YOUR BETTER OFF WITHOUT."

No-lifer.

I basically sat my ass on the damn couch for about an hour or so tweaking on WII.
How nice, right? Ha! Which resulted in my whole body aching afterwards. Good workout I should say. Haha.

Anyway, I'm looking foward to '09! (: I mean, I'm letting go of all the negativity s l o w l y, trying to live up everyday 'till the new year, & trying to better myself each day. Speaking of '09, that means NEW new years resoulutions! Although I highly doubt i'll ever stick to them. But it doesn't hurt to try right? RIGHT

Oh and did I ever mention that the Swiffer Sweeper Jet commercial is awesome ^_^ Lmao. Yeh, I really don't know .. But this blog is useless! REALLY not-worth reading. :P

The malls get a tad bit boring everytime. Waikele's boring, Pearls is overrated w/ intermediates, Alas is too big & a tad expensive, Kahala isn't much, & Windward is just the same as pearls. Boohoo, but what other choices do I really have? Haha.

I think i'm buisy everyday of this weeek! :) Tomorrow, Ash, Ethel, & I are planning on eating lunch at Genki then maybe chill at my house? Or elsewhere. Tuesday, I'm planning a day out with the boyfriend since I havn't seen him since last week. Maybe the girls will tag along? Wednesday- New Years Eve, The family is coming over to my house for the BBQ for my brother & to celebrate New Years. Thursday, My uncle's birthday & of course, NEW YEARS! :D Friday, Not sure, probably sleepover Kalihi side. (: If not then, whatever happens. Yay, I'm booked for this week!

The brownies ready, I should go. My cousin is holllllerin'

Updation

So today went s'well afterall =) Ha. Power was back on, shopping malls we're up & going, there's A LOT of sale. BUT that downside was TRAFFIC. Lol, well not that bad, but still bad. You get? Okay, maybe not. But anyway, I spent half the day with my parents. Went back down to Waipio Costco to get some stuffs for my brothers/new years party. Stopped by Home Depot & Wally world, where I stocked up on Christmas things since it was all 50% off. A pretty good deal, tell me not. Headed homebound, after. Tweaked on WII, once again. ^__^ It never gets old. Well, not to me atleast. Ha. Ate lunch & then headed back out with my mother n' Krissy. Shopped at pearls. Didn't find much -_- I mean, there was A LOT of sale! Then again, everytime I got the cash to go shopping- I can't find anything! And when I don't got cash, I find so many things I like! Lol, I know .. Weird huh? I bet i'm not the only one. ANYWAY, headed to my grandma's house after. Chillled like the usual.

As of now? I'm watchin' news & catching up on what happen to what they supposedly call- "Black Friday." Ha! Well, off to play Diner Dash while I wait for boyfriend to call me.

BLACK FRIDAY.

So yesterday, I was listenin' to the raido stations .. N' they we're talking about how yesterday (122608) was BLACK FRIDAY number 2! Lmao. Okay, so It really did turn to Black Friday ... Seriously. Gosh, I never thought majority of the whole O'ahu wouldn't have electricity, but I was wrong. So anyway, Everything was all goood .. My family & I we're playing WII, laughing & everything .. & then we decide to head out to Waipio Costco. By the time we reached Waipahu, The lights we're gone EXCEPT Ewa Beach, Kapolei, Makakilo, & Waikiki. The rest? BLACK. Nothing but pitch black! Ha. So the roads we're obviously hard to see, being that there we're no lights & to top it off, it was raining hard! So we head down Waipio/Mililani side only to find no power. So there we we're- STUCK IN TRAFFIC, MAJOR traffic I should say, for about a goood one hour! It was hard going through Waikele, esp. having to take turns since the traffic lights weren't working, so boohooo to that! Then we get home, No one home .. No flashlight. Used our cell phones to find our way through & find candles. HA! we got lucky! Just about 1 big candle, and another small one. So that was that. Sat outside for the longest! Then my parents fell asleep which meant me being awake alone. Ahhh! So I played Diner Dash on my laptop to keep me buisy :) (THANK GOD FOR LAPTOPS*) ;P I didn't get to talk to boyfriend because for one, I was too buisy w/ my 'rents. Two, I didn't want to talk loud when my parents we're sleeping. & three, He closed his damn phone after, ha! So that made it harder for me to sleep- I totally HATE the dark >_< Haha.


So anyway, I wake up at 6:34, & the powers back on. ALLELUIA! :D Misohappy! Haha, So I wake up instantly & just play my WII before anything else happens, AGAIN. I'm even charging everything as of right now, Haha! That way I have nothing to worry about. Hm, All this because of lightning! How lame, right? Hopefully everything goes s'well today! My 'rents & I are planning on heading back to Costco since we need to get some stuff, but we're leaving probably two hours ahead of 12, since the KCCN FM 100 said there was gonna be another lightning at 12 or whatever. Could be lies :P I wonder how much people we're frustrated because the loss of signal through their cell phones & no internet, lol! See how much people depend their lives on internet, cell phone, ps3's, WII's, etc. Haha, We should all prepare now xP

'Till then, I'll update when I get the chance too. Later blogger ♥

Best christmas yet

A cute bag from 'EXPRESS', A hollister tank top, A WII, A hello kitty shirt, accessories + another shirt, 2 pairs of panty & a bracelet, a make-up case, $50 gift card to FOREVER21 :D :D, N' 80+ buckarooos! ;D

That's pretty much what I got for Christmas. And NO, It's not a complaint, lol. I love it! I mean, I don't blame anyone .. the economy is a _itch right now, Haha. My parents too, didn't do much shopping this year. I guess the economy is just as bad. But I'm satisfied! Afterall, Christmas isn't all about getting gifts. It's being happy, n' loved, n' giving love that matters the most. :) Heh. Anyway, Today, My mom & I played santa clause for about 15 minutes :P Dropped off presents to Kalihi side since we couldn't attend the dinner there because we didn't want to ditch our other plans. Heh, saw baby Matt, that cutie! ^_^ After Kalihi, we stopped by a bunch of stores & went grocery shopping n' then homebound. Talked stories w/ just my momma' & brother jay. It's been awhile since we did that. We had a pretty good time talking about our lives, haha. How interesting :P Mmm, dropped off food at my other brothers house, & then went over to my grandma's for BBQ. It was goood! But not as exciting as yesterday. Took pics before Chelle left (to spend time with her moms side), ate dinnner, uploaded pictures, & sat down w/ all my cousins watching movies on HBO. I think we we're watching One Missed Call, Mhm. But then we all had to leave since the parentals work tomorrow.. Heh. So that was my joyful christmas ;D I hope everyone else had a good one ^_^

So for tomorrow, I think my mother & I are planning on heading down to Kalihi to chill then shop after .. (: Yeh, pretty much it. Happy holidays everyone! ♥

I should mention that TWENTY'09 is comin' by real fast >_< Geee! Another year, Another set of new years reslolutions (that i'll probably forget), HAHA. ENJOY 08 while it lasts! :D

CHRISTMAS EVE

So the morning up until noon was boring. I woke up to find NOBODY home, how sad! BUT, I used my time wisely :) I made myself breakfast, watched t.v., cleaned my room, fixed my closet, put away my laundry & arrange my closet so everything could fit .. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! :D Lol, I've been procrastinating on my laundry & fixing my closet. So today I finally found the time. Actually, I always have time .. I just don't use my time wisely, which by the way, I should start learning how to do that more often. Anyway, so my brother Jay came home from work & told me he won a WII from his christmas party at work; And he's planning on just giving that to me since I wanted one for the longest, YAY! :D Which reminds me, I need to buy games ^_^ ANYWAYS, Mommy came home. And guess who comes over? ;] ZAYLA BABY! Haha, Aw that cutie! Played with her, n' whatevers. Talked stories 'till they left. Then we get a call from my grandma saying that we should eat dinner there, so that's where we went. Ate dinner, exchanged gifts, arranged all the loads of gifts underneath the christmas tree (which was A LOT, -_-), watched old cartoons, n' then photo sessioned w/ the cousins ^_^ Aw, it was finally MKDA, again. Only because Gee showed up n' was in the mood to take pictures .. Most times she's just M.I.A., which sucks! But yeh, The pictures turned out cute =) Added the little kids in it, which made it even more cute, hehe. Then settled down a bit n' watched my grandma open her gifts. That was pretty much it. Laughed a lot, like always. Hmm, can't wait for tomorrow :) It's another day! Haha. Aw, this year is probably the best christmas, yet! I love my family :D I know, so family-oriented huh? I wouldn't have it any other way. I'd rather be with them than miss out on the good stuff.

But to everyone else, MERRY CHRISTMAS! *Happy holidays, love you all♥

Now or Never.

This shit really gets OLD & I'm so sick of it, already!

What's it gonna take to make you realize?

How many times am I gonna have to give in?

We can't wait forever just to make things work ..

It's either NOW or NEVER ..

Good company.

It's the start of winter break, officially! And i'm off to a good start, so far :)

So today wasn't much. Although, I did find the right day to have some quality time with the boyfriend. He kept me company for a good 3 hours. Yay to that! Haha. After he left, I slept for 4 hours, which was good because I woke up early this morning, anyway. That was that. My mom came home, she cooked dinner & decided that we head out since the guys we're sleeping they asses off. Headed to Waikele & went last minute shopping (I hope it's the last) ha. Bought me an outfit to wear for our family gathering ^_^* Geez, I can't wait! Christmas is coming so soon, can't you believe it? Then it's gonna be 'Good bye 2008, HELLLO 2009' ;] It'll come by fast .. since the days are goin' by hella fast! Anyway, I'm at my grandma's house as of right now. My little cousins are keeping me company until the girls decide to come home, Lol. Mkay, off to watch movies on HBO :) That's always the best part about being at my grandmas- HBO ;D ♥

4 DAYS 'TILL XMAS, 3 DAYS 'TILL XMAS EVE.

And It's feeling more & more like Christmas :D

Hm, So I woke up xxtra early today so I can freshen' up for church, duh :P Lol. So anyway, got myself ready, which took approximately 1 hour. Then my mom & I headed to go pick up the food for RCIA. Got to class, n' talked stories & what not. Watched a movie, which taught us a lesson. And talked about which was our saddest christmas, n' happiest. And Aunty Julie was crying, which made everyone else cry ;'( Anywho, I feel like this years christmas is my happiest because our family is complete, we have a christmas tree, & no drama with the family this year :) My saddest was probably two years ago .. but anyway! On with m'life, Lol. So after we talked stories, we prayed & then started grindin' on the good food, yum! :D Talked stories w/ Dulce. Kind of catched up on things, but not really. Then exchanged gifts w/ everyone. (Btw, THANKS SECRET SANTA*) Laughed a lot, after .. Then left to my grandma's- I didn't want to make my daddy wait, lol. Headed to my grandma's. Where I babysat Bigboy Izaiah & uploaded pics from a few days ago. Gosh I'm always late, huh? Lol. Mommy picked up a few hours after. Headed home & slept 'till she decided to go back out. Went to Wal-Mart to get us some christmas stuff, then to Longs .. Where I saw Noli, his 3 boys, Chas & her momma. Mmm, Shopped for stuffs we needed then headed home.

This is the most tiring part! Lol. Wrapped two big boxes, while my brother .. ON THE OTHER HAND, was trying to compete against me! He told me he could wrap better than me, so we challenged. He wrapped Zayla's gift, while I wrapped my grandparents'. And guess what? This muthafucka knows how to wrap like a girl! Lol, Kidddddding! :D He can wrap though! And he's creative in the mind. But whatever, I still won :P Haha. Then, my mom handed me like 20 million things to put together for her co-workers. Ugh, so tiring.. but I did it anyway. Such a nice daughter huh? Lol. Didn't finish up 'till 10. But I still have more to do tomorrow.. Which by the way, my boyfriends coming over tomorrow! Lol, someone to keep me company while I wrap gifts n' stufff. Yipeeeee.

Okaiiii, My pillows calllin' me ;) Peace.

Feels just like christmas

Well, sort of :P Went shopping today with the 'rents. Headed to the bank first, which took forever, by the way! Lol, then to Alas we go! :) Shopped a whole lot for the little kids. Then ate lunch at Zippy's in Nimitz.. Resturant that shit, lmao! Talked stories about some crazy stuffs! Weirdos o_O But anyway! After that, we headed to my grandmothers house. Chilled there for awhile since my daddy wanted to go have his haircut by my very own, grandpa ;p ha! Headed home after .. Put all the gifts together. Once I was done, my mom, krissy, & I headed to pearls to finish up our christmas list. Which was what we accomplished! Yippee! :D Hehe. Went to pearlhighlands to buy things at price buster while my mom went to go shop around. And I should mention that, My mom takes forever & 10 days to shop, literally! Lol. But that's alright. I'll manage .. Since I always do, ahaha. Headed home afterwards. Just wrapped all the gifts and shi. I'm hella tired now! Oh! I got me new jeans since they we're on sale at PacSun (Buy one, get one free) Cheeee. ;P haha. And our christmas tree is finally blingin' with presents! FINALLY* Haha.

Hm, today was a long day. But tomorrow is another! I can't wait. Seems like winterbreak is just off to a good start, huh? But I shouldn't speak too soon, lol. Having a party for our RCIA class tomorrow for church. And exchanging gifts for SecretSanta. Yipeee. I have yet another day awaiting me .. I should get the rest I neeed. So, 'till tomorrow, night blog <3

TGIF & NMSA

Which means, 'Thank god it's friday & No more school after' LOL!

Hm, so like today was last day for school. For winter break, that is. Not until next year! :D YIPEE! No waking up early on a daily basis! Haha. Anyway, My mom, Chellie, & I went shopping yesterday at Pearls. Walked into the usual stores n' whatever. Bough gifts for the two people I needed n' then got Baby Elijah & Izaiah their gifts. Haha, it's like i'm shopping for my mom this year! Geez, she never bought any, only I! Lol, that's okay though .. As long as my money is going to something good you know? [; Oh speaking of money! I spent some on myself yesterday too .. I got me 2 shirts that i've been wanting for the longest :D I guess you can say, I didn't care how much it was, I just bought it. x_x I know, i'm bad .. I can't keep my money, still! BOOHOO! Now all I have to get gifts for is the boyfriend .. My mom could handle the rest of the relatives. LOL!

On the other hand, School was good today. 1st period, finished up Dark Knight & ate popcorn. 2nd period, chillled n' presented our so called 'rapping' about Hitler. A bitch, I suppose? Lol. Lunch, was short. Went out to give Janice her gift (since she was my secret santa) and took pictures. Then back to Canon's. 3rd period, stayed at ash's 3rd. Photo sessioned a lot! 4th period, Debate. I was first one up just so I can get it over with. And yeah .. I was pretty darn nervous but it went a-okay! ;D Afterschool, hung out with the boyfriend. Imagine not seeing yours for 2 weeks? Lmao! Gosh I missed him so much even if he pissed me the f* off, ugh. Went to my house afterwards to chill n' shi'. I was locked out, so we chilled in my backyard, so fun ^_^ Lol.

Well, no school until next year! :D AWYEE! Can't wait for winterbreak. Everything'll just fall into place, haha! Hm. I couldn't be any happier :) Hopefully the 'rents & I go out tomorrow. Still got lots of christmas shopping to do. And I hope I have plans with Ash & Ethoe this break! Shit, >;]

Anywho, I'm tireddddd ..

Quote.

"You may not be her first, her last or her only. She's loved before and she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's no t perfect - you aren't either. And the two of you may never be perfect together. But if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice,
and admit to being human and making mistakes,
Hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day,
but she will give you a a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."
- Bob Marley

I don't care.

I officially stopped caring. I mean, fuck .. I've DONE ENOUGH, seriously. I've done my fucking best & tried my fucking best. Always tried to make shit work with everyone else. I tried making plans, but everytime its me who makes plans, it NEVER goes through. I always talk to you guys, but it's either you guys don't hear me because someone is always fucking talking over me, or you guys just choose not to fucking listen. Not my fucking fault. Sorry, I don't have as much confident in myself like the way you guys do. I'm sorry I don't got what you guys do. I just don't fucking care. I'm so sick of trying, & yet when I do, it's like NOTHING. You guys tell me to go there, PSH- for what? Just say "HI" n' that's all I fucking get? Gosh. And your complaining because? .. Because it's never us & shit? Gah, get it over with.. It's highschool ..
LET THINGS BE. What's meant to be will always find it's way .. Ugh. I've done enough! And i've tried enough. I don't need you guys telling me to keep trying, because I did .. You guys just never fucking took the chance to notice.. NOT MY FAULT. I'm done.


On the other hand.. I don't know if it's just me, or i'm fucking bitchin' at everyone >;[ I think it's my period .. I've been so damn moody lately. Shit, can't blame me right? Ugh! This is supposedly 'the most wonderful time of the year' Hah, NO .. not really! Life sucks at this point because stupid economic recession, global warming, stupid fucking people with no common sense, rude people, people who are stuck up .. And whatever else fucks up the world. Gosh, clean up people!

Well, this is non-sense blogging .. Excuse my language by the way. I've been using profanity A LOT lately. Ugh ..

Bitchy mode.

Helllllo blogger [: Havn't updated in a day.. well, it's not like anything special happens anyway. The only thing good that happend yesterday was the boyfriend & I's 1 year & 8 months. Hella long, huh? I'm glad after all, he's still with me & chose not to leave me no matter how much of a pain-in-the-ass I am. Because, I really am a handful. And a guy that can manage me is one that's worth sticking with ;] I wouldn't have it any other way. We've been through hell & back & i'm just glad it's him with me & me with him =) What can I say? I love 'em, duh! The downside about yesterday was not seeing him. -__- Boohoo, thanks to my 'too much homework', since I got back to school yesterday. Darrrn. Oh well, i'll make it up to him most definetley.

Today, however, was an o-kay day I guess? It could have been better but you girls can't just help it when you got your little friend down there changing your moods left and right! Lol. Gosh, i've been so damn bitchy now a days, everythings getting to me & it's got to stop. But anyway! 1st period wasn't much. Played a dumb game 'Mousse, Mousse'. I guess it was funny .. It's shame though >_< Second period wasn't much. Stayed at Canon's during lunch & just talked stories with the usual. Laughed n' laugh cause of vicky. Haha. 3rd was boring, I slept most of the time. And 4th was stupid. Just listened to peoples debate and whatnot. Ended up walking home in the rain! Which meant I couldn't see boyfriend again, cause I was soaked, ugh! Stupid stupid rain! Stayed in at my grandmas & watched movies on HBO with the family. Mom wouldn't fucking answer her damn phone which made me even more mad! Ugh, slept it off & daddy picked me up instead.

I don't know if we're going christmas shopping today since i'm mad at my mom. But whatever .. Gonna sleep! I need it. I need to stop sleeping in class, lol.

My trip to LV,

December 10: Our flight was at 2 but we got delayed due to unfinished paperwork being that the internet was down at the time. So instead of arriving at Las Vegas around 9:30PM, we arrived an hour later. The funny thing about the plane ride was my dad. He asked to borrow my IPod, so he could listen to the song he wanted, so I gave it to him. Instead of him listening, he ended up singing loud! Which was embarassing, lol! Oh & I finally got to see the city of lights during the night :D VEGAS IS BEAUTIFUL, Indeed! Anyway, so yeah.. the bus took so long to take us to the hotel which took another hour, ugh. Didn't get to the hotel 'till 11:30PM. Checked-in & whatever else. Slept once we got to the rooom, (my mom & I), while my daddy & grandparents went to play downstairs..

December 11: Ate breakfast at the Paradise Buffet. Aunty's daughter, Cherille(?), took us shopping w/ her cute chubby baby Zoey ^_^ hehe. Headed to Fashion show mall. Pretty much like Alaaaz but a bit smaller & indoors. Didn't find much. Mainly shopped for peoples orders. -_- Went to Las Vegas Premium Outlet .. Got me 2 shirts. & I should mention that their Starbucks there, SUCKS! My mocha frap didn't taste nothing like mocha, yuck! Haha. Anyway! After the premium outlet, my mom wanted to go to bath & body so Cherille(?) took us to Ceasers palace. I love it there! The ceilings are like clouds but they look so real ;P haha. Bought a shitload of sprays and lotions for people. That was basically all we bought, actually. Headed back to Fremont to eat dinner w/ the family. Then later went to Golden Nugget to check out my uncles rooom. It's hella' pretty but the view is hella' ugly. Hahaha. Slept when we got back. Then woke up again at 11 to go drink hot cocoa & eat donuts at Dunkin' Donuts.

December 12: The day everything went downhill for me .. I woke up around 3. I had a tummyache, it was super hot & I had like, a million bad dreams going through my mind everytime I closed my eyes x_x Woke up at 6, took shower .. but that didn't work. My body ached for the longest. I vomitted out my dunkin' donuts from the night before, ugh .. I was out of it! I didn't feel like getting up at all. I even vomitted out my medication and what not. I didn't eat breakfast lunch or dinner. I just drank Sprite, ginger ale (I was told it would help your tummy) & water. Took the loads of medication, ugh. I thought I would handle going out, so we did. Went to Boulevard Mall .. But right when we got there, I already got dizzy & had to vomit, so my mom just got what she needed and then we left. I slept the whole night since then .. ugh! It sucks when your sick on your trip- Can't do shit! >;(

December 13: I had a major fever and even lost my appetite. However! I did go shopping, and I managed to handle my body a bit better since I felt a bit better. [: Daddy came along w/ my mommy & I. Took the taxi, which is always good because their so friendly.. the only downside about it is, paying for ride. Lol. But anyway! Went back to Boulevard. Bought what I wanted, which wasn't much. It's so cheap there! =) I spent less than $40 bucks for 2 shirts, 1 jean, & shorts at Heritage & Agaci. Didn't really shop for people 'cause that mall wasn't all that great. It's more boring than Pearls, lol. Any who, after Boulevard, we headed to Miracle Mile Shops @ Planet Hollywood. It's beautiful there, :) Hehe. Bought orders for people. Headed to Ceasers palace, once again .. My mom bought a Coach bag for herself & my auntie since it's cheaper there. Then headed back to the hotel since my daddy was getting dizzy (but I think the machines we're missing him, lmao), so we caught the taxi back. And this asian was our driver & he's one hell of a wreck less driver! Got to the hotel in a nick of time, haha. Props to good Asian drivers ;P Haha, anyway! Slept when we got back. Then went downstairs to eat after we awoke. Ate saimin since I still couldn't eat rice, because my body just couldn't handle too much .. After we finished dinner, went back up to the rooms & did homework and whatnot. Fixed my luggage. Then slept! =)

December 14: Didn't do any shopping today 'cause our luggage's we're already packed with orders from people. PLUS, our luggage's couldn't be more than 50 pounds, as told by the escort for vacations-Hawaii. So boohoo to that! My mom & I walked around, outside the hotel. It wasn't much, being that it was SUPER ASS cold & I couldn't stand it -_- Lol. My lips we're all fried and my body was all dry, ew. But yeah, ended up just talking to boyfriend and doing crossword puzzles. Ate dinner at Lanai Express.. blah blah. Slept, pretty much it.

December 15: Woke up at 330-4am. Got ready to check out and whatever. Headed down to eat. Ate saimin. And then waited in the waiting room for the lady to tell us that we can board the buses. Took the terminal to the airport, checked in & then waited for our flight which was at 8. But we in order for us to leave, we had to leave before 8 because of the storm & snow that was gonna hit LV. If we left after, we wouldn't even be able to leave .. We would've ended up getting delayed again. But thank god we left early. The plane ride sucked ass, too bumpy. I'm even more bummed that I missed the snow, frick -_- nah but there's always next time :) Hopefully.


So that was my trip. Wasn't much exciting due to the fact that I was sick for 3 days, literally .. And I lost my appetite too. But I'm glad I went.. I doubt I'll ever go again during the winter! The weather sucks. Oh! & during the winter, the sun there, goes down at 430PM. Early huh? Haha. That calls for longer nights & shorter days. Boohooo. Anyway! yeah, I'm whacked out from my trip. It could have been better and I would have done more shopping but oh well, shit happens right? RIGHT.


Wow I just noticed how much I've typed! One hell of a blogger huh? I'll cut it here, peas♥

Vegas bound

TODAY (: Yay! I'm happpy I get to not go school, see snow, be fricking cold!, & yeah. But i'm only staying there for awhile, not for long -_- poooo* That's alright! At least I get to go this month. Hah! Wellllllllll, I don't got computer up there so i'll update when I come back, probably :)

'till thennnn, ciao! [;
♥

Random.

"Honestly, I feel like your not happy.

Like it's just whatever to you ..."

- Ashley.

That's when I realized .. -_-

I wont even go into details.

Anyway, went to school early again. Well, kind of later than usual, blame my hair. Lol. 1st period wasn't much. Did a worksheet then cognitive tutor the rest of the time. Laughed quite uh bit a lot, haha. 2nd period was boring .. I guess. Just talked to Ash, Kevando, & Alan. Bleh! x_x Went to manapua for lunch (first time in a long time) & Kevando treated me since I treated his skanky ass a million times, lmao. Went to Pasalo's to eat. Left to D building & cruise with 'the girls' I guess & kind of- Arlex. 3rd period was a bore. So like, we had to group up with another table that my group did not want to work with .. It was awkward. So anyway, I went up to grab colored papers while this other girl in my group but in a different table came up after me .. She litterally kept shoving her damn skinny ass arms in my got damn face & kept taking all the papers out of my hand that I grabbed for myself >;/ How annoying, right?! I wanted to bite her fricking head off & smack her but I knew it would've started a whole 'nother non-sense. And even before that, She snobbed my friend on my table just because she was doing the project on something that irritating girl wanted to do. Gosh, she's so immature! >;/ Ugh. Stupid people! Anyway, on with my life, haha! Just cutted out pictures for our project, which by the way .. I HAVE to bring with me on my trip so I can finish it. What a bummer huh? Period 4 was just non-sense. Went to the library with Kayla, Chelsea, Danni, & Shaun. Researched and whatnot. Got a hell lot of notes down =) Haha. & Talked stories with Danni .. She's pretty cool if you understand her [; Ha. Went to my grandma's afterschool and waited for my brother to pick me up.

Parentals don't get home 'till later, but that's all right. OH! And WE GOT A CHRISTMAS TREE LAST NIGHT! =D I was happy as a mutha ____! [; Hehe, My brother helped me put on the lights and it's so pretty ^_^ And my mother dear bought ornaments today, so yeh. Aw, but too bad it doesn't smell as much, because it's not big or small it's just medium-sized. Plus, my daddy cut some leaves off so boohoo to that! Whatever, it's still pimpin' [; Haha!

Hmph, I just finished packing. I just have to wait to put in all my small things then i'm all set for Vegas. Just needa' pick up some work tomorrow at school for 1st period. And I believe we arrive LV @ 9:30 PM, since we board at 11AM. Hm, 2 hour difference than here. Hm, can't wait. I hope everything goes s'wellllllllll. =)

"Angels on the moon - Thriving Ivory"

Okay, so .. Last night, that song came on when my parents & I we're in the car. And I got addicted to it, but my daddy already likes that song. Haha, I finally found something we have in common ;P jk.

Anyhow, School wasn't all that great but it was g-o-o-d, GOOD ;D Left to school early, once again. I love walking early in the morning, it's so cold! Haha. Mkay, well 1st period wasn't much. Did my work so I didn't have leftovers to bring on my trip, lol. 2nd period was just work work work! I swear, I think we're getting more & more work by the minute! -_- 1st quarter tricked me, because I thought it was gonna be a cruise class but ... I though otherwise. Stayed in Canon's for lunch. Talked stories with Ash, Vicky, Kevin, & Ethel. We literally laughed at everything Vicky said. Haha, she's hilarious that's why, duh [; Mhm, anyways! I finally showed up to 3rd after a long while .. And must I say, I think Ramos was dissapointed at me for not showing up last week. She probably knew I went to all classes except hers. >_< I didn't have much to catch up on besides a Newscast we we're doing. Our group could've done better. I mean I just jumped in & I didn't do all that great but at least I tried. It never hurts to try right? RIGHT. Hm, so for 4th, we headed to the library to do a bit of researching for our essay's whatnot. Me & Ash had a stupid conversation about Kevin. It was pretty hilarious, actually. Lol! I couldn't even talk without breaking a laugh! We we're probably the loudest ones in there. ;P And then she made me laugh even MORE when she laughed this ugly laugh, like seriously. Lmfao. Laughed the whole way back to class. & That was pretty much it. Went to my grandma's afterschool, the usual ..

Awkward as it seeems, my brother jay came to get me instead of my mom (she was still at work). It was awkward. Knowing that we barely talk & I could barely get along with him before, but ah .. whatever. Suck it up, I guess [: Things are better now, that's all that matttters. Ha.

My parents said we we're getting our christmas tree today but I doubt it. My mom is still heading home from work, & My dad is cleaning the yard .. So their probably gonna be tired & lazy, like always. -__- I really want one though, since it's our first christmas in this house. Hmph. But like they say you can't always have what you want. I hope we do 'cause I wanna get a christmas tree & doll it up cute [; Haha.

Bleh, my blogs are non-sense, basically. Yeah, anyways I still havn't finished my packing -_- I'm so fricking lazy to do so. And I barely get any sleep. But it's a good thing i'm going. That means no waking up 6:30 (or earlier) in the got damn morning! Ha. Gosh i'm wasting time... *ack!

Christmas-y

Today was overall all right, if you ask me. I woke up early because I thought I was going to Kalihi but my mom changed her mind about going work. So instead, she'll go tomorrow. She dropped me off to my brothers house while she brang my grandma & auntie out to buy food for tonight. So that was that. Babysat Zayla majority of the time I was there, of course. But Kimmie came over too play, too. And I admit, after she came, it was pretty hard to leave Zayla because she would whine everytime I told her Kimmie went home (for kid) Ha. But I ended up leaving because she got all cranky & I think she was getting tired. My mom came to get me. Got home & just read my book while the boyfriend was on the phone listening to me. Lol. o_O

Now, I'm currently at my grandma's house. The family is having a get to together, yet again- Due to the fact that my Uncle ordered the Pacquiao vs. Dela Hoya fight. Mhm. So therefore, we're eating dinner here too, yay! That means good food! =) Haha. Besides that, I'm feeling christmas-y, like my headline says. I can smell the christmas treees & I just LOVE the smell ^_^ Yay, I can't wait 'till we get one (HOPEFULLY!) ;P

Welll I think the fight is about to start sooon.
'Till then folks, ciao ♥

TGIF

School wasn't much today. The whole damn week goes by fast, but Friday's are always s l o w .. Which sucks! Lol. Classes we're boring, didn't end up going to 3rd again -_- But i'll start going next week, since I leave on Wednesday. Heh. Walked home with the girls today, which I havn't done for quite awhile. Nothing new, though.

Anyhooots, Heading to Borders later, to get me some books to keep myself buisy with, then probably go shopping after with the 'rents. So that'll set my night [: Okay, I sha'll get ready now [:

Update (10:37PM): So anyway, my mother dear brought me to Borders, along with my auntie & cousin. So I ended up getting "Catcher in the rye" & "Promise not to tell", I know .. I know, boooks aren't just me! But hey, It doesnt hurt to try right? [: And honestly, I'm starting to like reading, lmao! I know! Hella' weird. But then again, I aint got nothing better else to do right? I'd rather have something to keep me buisy rather than myspacing every damn hour of my sad life. Pooor me, >;] I'm so pathetic. Anywhos, I'm liking 'Catcher In the Rye', so far. Although, I find it annoying most times only because it mentions "and all" way too much -__- But I'll deal! So for the rest of my night, i'm just planning to watch t.v. & talk to the boyfriend (before he gets all grumpy & salty), ha.

Hm, my plans for tomorrow are set. The parentals are working tomorrow. So my mom decided to bring me to Kalihi then after she's done with work we're gonna go Waikele, & then head to my grandma's house for the Pacquiao fight, yet again. ;P Yeah, i'm so family oriented! Hah, But I love it =D

'Till tomorrow, Nightttty night ♥

No school for me.

The reason why I hate sleeping at my house on school nights is because it's hard for me to wake up xtraa early the next morning. I was super tired to wake up this morning that my mother ended up leaving me. And that was that. I was willing to walk to school but I woke up at 7 which made it even harder for me 'cause I didn't want to walk 20 damn minutes in the sun then when I get to school, i'm all icccky x_x Yuck. So I stayed home, instead. Now i'm doin' nothing but something meaningless. Geez, I should learn how to use my time & days wisely! I keep procrastinating on things i'm wanting to do, but I dont .. Bummmer! Besides this ol' thang, Im'a go downstairs, & find the energy i'm needin' [;

laterrr ♥


Update: So the rest of my day was pretty much boring. I fell asleep for about 3 hours or so. And then phone'd the boyfriend, and whatnot. That was pretty much it, 'till Zayla came. She was asleep though. She's got the tummy flu, poor thing ;( Along with my brother & daddy. Oh geez, hopefully it doesn't carry on. Ha! Ergh, school tomorrow x_x I have a feeling I missed hella' lots because mrs. stink pec! >;[ Which reminds me, I think I've got homework to keep myself buisy with. But i'm doing otherwise, lame! Mommy says I need to start going to schoool because i'm taking off next week Wednesday 'till the Monday after. I guess she has a point right? RIGHT.

Self-Explanatory.

:)

Stresssin'

How you gon' keep kissing ass everytime I wanna leave?

I'm fucking tired of the same old fucking shit. Every damn night dealing with the same thing! Don't you know that it gets OLD?! It's not that I give up, It's just that i'm literally sick & tired of you throwing shit at me like i'm the one that's doing everything wrong. Fuck, Seriously. I've put in effort into it, & tried a million billion kazillion times, & yet you just never seem to get it. How many times do I actually need to tell you 'till you get your mind straight?! -__- I feel that I shouldn't even give in no more 'cause I don't feel the need to. It's been almost 2 years already, 2 long years, -_- I'm SICK of it. .

1st of the month

Yay! It's finally December! Dang, the year went by fast huh?! Lol. It's like everyday nothing changes but when we look back, everything's changed o_O

Anywho, today was whatever. If you know me, You should know that I despise Mondays for some odd reason & I think I mention it on my blogs a lot, HA. Hm, 1st & 2nd was alrighty. At lunch, I hung out with the girls for the first in awhile! -_- But only for a short while .. & then I cruised with Arlex & Noli. Talked stories most of the time .. gah. x_x Reason being, why I don't like going out to lunch. Mainly because I look foward to hanging out with the girls, but I dont know .. It feels so BLAH/awkward I guess? Idk okay whatever! So 3rd period was fun. Had a sub. Didn't do work most of the time. Instead, the whole table listened to Ashley talk! Hahaha, I swear she's so funny. She talks 75 minutes straight [; Talk about interesting life, right? LOL. 4th was a _itch as always! Went to my grandma's & played with Izaiah then fell asleep 'till my mommy came to get me. She got me starbucks ^_^ Lol <3

Oh &!! I leave to Las Vegas in a week from now, to be exact! I'm excited, yet again. Because it's winter & it's snowing & I get to go shopping (xmas shopping, too) :D Hehe, speaking of Christmas! Just 'round the corner, damn.. Hella' fast. Feels like Christmas was just yesterday ;P Holidays are always the best right? [;

Here's a few things I had in mind for what I wanted. It aint much to ask for, actually. (:

Isiro Slippers - $30.00 (Aldo)

Lapis Skinny Jeans - 29.99 (CharlotteRusse)

Leopard Heart Bracelet - $7.00 (WetSeal)

Lace Cardigan - $19.50 (WetSeal)

Painted Heart Sweater - $19.80 (FOREVER21)

Love Burnout Tee - $13.80 (FOREVER21)

Sunnnny day

So I woke up kind of later than usual to get ready for communion class. But left just in time [: Got there, & I was alone once again .. But Cassie came just in time along w/ Mark & Dulce so yeah. Class wasn't much. Didn't discuss much but First day of Advent & the pictures that we had to color for the Jesse Tree. So that was that. Pretty much just colored & talked about teachers at Campbell.. Lol, which was quite funny because we talked mostly about sub teachers! Haha. Had laughs here & there until class was over.

After class, parentals picked me up & headed straight to Jedidiah's 1st birthday at Arizona Memorial Park. Cruised for awhile then ate lunch. After we ate, played with Zayla baby [; Hehe. So cute her! ^_^ Mommy decided that we go to pearls so that's where we headed with my aunties & cousins. Shopped for about an hour or so. Bought be lots of stuff ^_^ Yay! NEW CLOTHES ;D Lol, my cousin & I just went all out shopping. WOOHOO! Haha. Decided to head back to the party & pick up the guys, & So we did. Then left to go home. I have a major headache right now, & i'm so exhausted. This being, the reason why I didn't attend Mass + Lifeteen today -__- But I'll go next week, for sure! Ha. Plus boyfriends being an ass once again. Meaning I don't get to talk to him again ;( Lol. Uggggh, I hate argueing with him! We never talk! HAWH! Talk about stressss. BLEH! x_x Mkay im'a go sleeep it off.

Quote of the day:
"It's always the person you want the most, that you're better off without."

Have a nice day everyone [;
CIAO♥

Thanksgiving weekend:

This is by-far the best thanksgiving weekend ever! ;P

Wednesday: Decided that I wanted to go to school because I had that CPR class for health! What a bummer >;( We we're stuck in the Humanities room for the whole damn school day ('cept lunch) And I can honestly say, that class was HELLA' boring, due to the fact that we had to learn off a book until the end. The ending was alrighty. Did CPR on the manican and what not. SO TIRING -__- Took the exam after, so I passsed! Now i'm CPR certified, aw shi [; Lol, jk. But yeh, I am. Yipppee! Afterschool, Caught bus to Kalihi. SO SAD -_- But anyways, that night .. my older cousin (Klayre), her boyfriend (Dennis), Leslie, Akeedo & I went to eat dinner at Tony Roma's ^_^ Gosh, I most especially loved the desert :D Talk 'bout YUMMY IN MA' TUMMY. Lol. Yadi yadi ya .. talked to boyfriend & what not. Then my cousins dropped him off home.

Thursday: THANKSGIVING ;D gobblegobble* ehe. The cousins brang me over to the dad's side of the family- party. So we left to Ala Moana Beach. Didn't feel like swimming 'cause the sun was shinin' & I didn't want to get darker than I already was .. So I skipped that. Sat & talked stories w/ the cousins. Watched the family play volleyball, that was hella' funny. Leimomi was so hyper on mountain dew- all she could say was MUCHACHA, MUCHACHA!! Hahahaha. So funny. Stayed there from 10-5. Then back to my aunty's house in Kalihi. Junior drove halfway home, so fun. Leslie was praying, bwahaha. ASK HER WHY. ;P Ate dinner there with the mom side of the family. So my family too =) LOL. Mhm. It was fun. Good fun talking to the family, as always.. ;] Didn't get to sleep 'till 11ish. So that meant less sleep for blaccck friday! *ACCCK! x_x

Friday: Woke up EXTRA, early! Like, 3am. Haha, yes we're that CRAZY even if Ala Moana is just right there .. Haha. Got ready & left about 4. Picked up Janalyn, then boyfriend. Went to Alas. Barely any store was open because of course, it was Early! Haha. Waited at PacSun 'cause boyfriend & I though it was gonna open at 5 but instead they opened at 6! -__- So did Forever21. Got lazy to go forevers so I didn't. Shit, next time. I did however, get me new sandals since my mom keeps complaning! >;[ lol. & bought me two shirts & A HELLO KITTY outfit for Zayla ^_^ Yay. Saw lots of people that I knew xP Ehe. But yeah, ended up leaving Alas at 9! I was so tired, my heels we're hurtin' baddd ;( Ehe. Went to Jack-In-The-Box to get breakfast 'cause I was hecka' hungry! All I had was Starbucks! Lol. Got home, ate. And that's when my cousins decided to go Waikele. Ergh, so we left to go. And the line of cars was all the way from the freeway, BUT we went by pretty fast & we found parking easily! Haha. Waited forever & a day for my aunty to come out of Coach! LOL. Ethel found me in the crowd, chillled with her for a bit. Ha. Went home around 1ish. Slept it off after for like 2 hours. Then back out AGAIN. Back to Alas with my aunty this time. We had to drop of my cousin to work & watched her when the trained passed us by. Left to go home around 745, ate dinner, talked stories ;p *secccccret! lol. Picked up my cousin. And now i'm blogggging. I misssss blogger n' myspace! Haha, this comes to show that I depend my life so much on the internet! YIPEEE? NOT. lol. 1 more day 'till I go home ;D yay!

Boring Tuesday

For my mom to come get me. And I could bet- she's stuck in traffic, poor thing. Traffic gets pretty bad, sucks for those who drive ;P Lol.

Schoool was nothin' much. Didn't go to 3rd period, ended up staying at Canon's. & Went home during 4th 'cause I don't even learn jack in that class! Pisses me off, it just wastes my time >;[ Ugh so I wanted to go to sleep but instead, the boyfriend called. Ended up argueing over something so stupid, which pissed me off even m o r e!! >; Ugh! then as always, he kisses ass. Haha, jk. (: I love him though :D Yehh .. talk about the a rollercoaster kind of relationship. Whose isn't right? Heh. I feel like onlin-shopping but i'm so tired! I tried to go to sleep earlier but my eyes kept bothering me. It's like everytime I close it, it hurts .. it feels like it's forcing the eyeball to go up or something. I DONT KNOW! Lol, I know so random.

UPDATE: So ZAYLA baby came over for dinner today. Which made my day of course! I havn't seen that sunshine in awhile [; Hehe. Well, okay .. So we ate dinner & what not, just talked stories & watched tv. Went upstairs to get my things ready, along with Zayla. Like always, she messed up my room, but I dont mind because what does she know right? I mean she knows hell of a lot (trust me). Haha, so I watched her bring out all my nail stuffs & my flat balloons while at the same time, figuring out what to wear. Lol. I got kinda moody afterwards 'cause I don't know where all my jeans went! >;( Ugh. And then when I went downstairs to let my mom know I was ready, my moms asks me a questions that leads to both of my parents fighting. -__- d a m n .. So I just left, And now i'm at my grandma's. Not having a good night. That's all, I feel like everythings crashin down on me all in one weeek. BOOHOO ;|


Ciao <3

"THE SHOW" - Lenka

Haha, I'm currently listening to that song (: HM, Today wasn't much .. Went to all my classes. Nothing different really. Same thang, different day. HA. OH! But I did hang out with the girls today, well not really because I have no clue where Margie was! And then, The rest we're with their boyfriends. All occupied! So I stayed with Michelle & Noli. Fun fun fun! Haha. Aside from school, My mother, father, chelle, & I went to Pearls today so that my 'rents could pay their bills at Sears. Shopped for awhile but only got me a wallet, it's cute ^_^ ehe. Went to Longs afterwards. Got starbucks while we we're at it. And I think that's what made me so HYPER! Lol, I went all out hyper! ;D So funny.

Oh but here's something interesting I found:

Women are like apples on trees, the best ones are on the top of the tree.
The men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and don't want to get hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't so good but easy.
So, the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality they are amazing.
They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top becuase they value quality.

TRUE HUH? =) Haha, Alrighty Night everyone!

A start of something new ..

So Sundays are always my fun days. Due to the fact that it's CHURCH DAY! =) Lol, So I went to class today 'cause I missed last week (due to cramping >;[ ) anyway, so church was basically about helping people in a way that we're helping god also. So as always class was and hour & 30 minutes. Discussed many things & had a bunch of laughs =) And on top of that, Aunty Precy brang spaghetti! HAHA. =) It was good while it lasted.. Mommy came to pick me up afterwards. Dropped off Dulce. Headed home the killed time until my mom & I went out. Had to be home before 4.

So Donna came to pick me up. I was scared to go to Lifeteen, but then again, I had to face my fear and experience what I havn't, yet. So we went to 5:00 mass first. It last for, forever! But it was worth it. After mass, It was lifeteen. Chilled for awhile w/ Noli (whom i've missed!) and the girls .. I pretty much didn't know almost everyone -_- So we got into groups & had to come up with a skit. It wasn't as funny as the rest but atleast we did it :] I'm proud of myself *tap on the back* Ha, After that .. Listen to others skit & people roast Father Scott. It was funnny although, I could barely laugh because my head was so sore ;( But I dealt with it. We watched a slideshow for Father Scott then did a prayer. Lifeteen was then finished. Peace'd w/ everyone & hugggs of course! Chilled outside w/ the girls & everyone .. And that was it. Donna dropped me offf.

* I can honestly say that, GOD IS GOOD, forevvva! Not only did I learn things but I also got the chance to meet new people, new faces, w/ different personalities. As well as getting closer to GOD. From then on, I'm willing to bettter myself- not only for people, but for God. (: This may sound pathetic to you, but you'll catch my drift when you experience something like this. Even if I was hella' nervous about lifeteen, I'm just glad I went.

Overall my day was good. Sunday's are always good. God is gooood.
Yipeee do daaaaa. Lol, anyways gonna go catch some ZzZZzzzzZZzZzz's! My heads bangin' & I NEEED to go to school tomorrow. Besides, we only got 3 days of school this week =)

YAY! Night night folks, Sleepy tight ;]
don't let the bed b u g s biiiiite! <3

Been buggin' me since then ..

"It's not about who's being true in front of you, It's about who's staying true behind your back."

Self-explanatory ..

R a i nnnn n*

A good wheather for stayin' in =) Indeed? Haha, today woulda' been a good day to go out if it wasn't raining, but that's okay. Mommy says I need to cut down on the money spending because holidays are around the cornnnner ;D That's what I'm most excited for ^_^ Anyhoots, my mothers been bugging me alll morning long so I decided to clean instead of listening to her lecutring me about doing this & doing that n' whatever. Smart huh? ;p She left me alone after I ignored her a couple of times, lol.

Speaking of holidays! ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS:
- For my daddy to paint the other half of my room, HOT PINK ;D
- Wireless internet ( So I wouldn't have such a hard time at home! )
- ca$$$$$$$h monnnay
- gift cards! (forever21, charlotte russe, wetseal, pacsun, etc.)
- helllo kitty, kuromi, harajuku, & tokidoki .. whichever! x)
- for the 'mainsix' to have some kind of outing ( I miss it oh so much! )
- & A new phone! (t-mobile G1 w/ google or the new sidekick, to be exact)

Haha, that's not so much to ask for right? Aha, I guess .. Atleast it wasn't as much as what I asked for last year. I was totally out of it ! Haha, That's allll. Bbl for updation <3

Waiver day.

So I got up hella' early this morning (5AM) so my mom can drop me off to Kalihi. Only because I didn't wanna be alone at home, being bored & doing nothing. So I got us (My cousins & I) Spanish Rolls from the Bakery & ate that for breakfast. Then around 9'ish, We left to drop off JR's food for his class. Then later left to Alas. Shopped around & bought me 2 tops from Forever 21. Didn't find much because the workers weren't that nice. >;[ I hate that; When I go to a store and the workers are so mean/stuck up. UGH. Puts me in a bad mood. But ANYWAY, on with my day .. So after alas we headed back to their house before 12 and ate lunch. Watched A Haunting for an hour but I fell asleep -__-Ended up falling asleep 'till 2'ish. Waited for my mom to get me after she got done from work. So that was that.

Decided to head to Waikele after. Bought me a scarf & a bunch of sweaters so that way when I go to Vegas in December, I wouldn't be too cold! And I'm so ooberly excited ^_^ Lol, okay anyway. So we headed home. And at the time, my mom said it was okay to go to my grandma's house tonight for BBQ. But like an idiot I was to believe her, We ended up not going because she so called didn't want to 'INVITE' herself when I specifically told her that Grandma tried calling you on private & you don't answer. She got all hard-headed & stubborn like how she always was! So of course, I got super irritated & by then I was already moody, UGH. So we went home & I didn't feel like going already because I lost patience for her. And stupid thing was- My dad was already ready & waiting outside because my mom had told him earlier that we we're going & to get ready. Poor thing, my dad was already hungry -_- But anyway, Stayed in my room the whole time. And my stupid mom changed her damn mind. IRRITATING, I tell ya. Ugh. Whatevaaa.

So now i'm here. Bettter than I was a couple hours ago. But anyway, today wasn't what I expected .. Once again. The girls we're supposed to have a girls day outing thing.. But then AGAIN .. The plan didn't go as planned. AS ALWAYS. This is the reason why I don't like making plans unless it's for sure. BLAH! x| Shit, I wish I had a car , but I can only dream. HAHAHA. HOW PATHETIC right?

HAHA, ANYWAYS blogger is gettting so interesting lately. I love it =) There's so many blogs to read. Meaning, NEW blogs. HAHA. Mkay well catch ya' later! Baby Izaiah being too cute because I "PLAYED AROUND" yelled at him :P I love babies! =D

Breeezy!

My day went just fine :]
1st period was the same ol'. Listen to presentations & whatnot. Afterthat, was chill.
2nd period, Just did work & finished our imperialism poster.
Lunch, Went to 7-11 w/ Ashley. Almost got caught, but NOT. Ha.
3rd period, first time for the weeek. It was a breeeze. School wide writing day, LAME
4th period, finished up my final draft for writing thingy. & Just talked stories with Ash & Ethoe.
Afterschool; Caught bus to Fairways w/ Ash & Ethoe. Went to Ethoe's house first then to the park. It was fun & breezy! I laaaav it. Lol. PLUS, the view was nice. Lol, toook a hell lot of pictures & just cruised. Mommy picked me up afterwards.


Today was chilll, I laaav'd it. Lol, on the plus side, it was STILL breeezay! Haha. Anyway, currently watching news because it's what I ALWAYS do. Lol. Welll i'm done, myspace needs it's turn =)

Ordianary.

Yet another monday. Didn't really feel like gettin' up & gettin' ready only because my monthly was kickin' in some cramps, yet again! But I HAD TO go -__- I couldn't miss another day of school, because I end up missing a lot! And I totally hate missing assignments. But on the otherhand, 1st period was just fine =) It was Sunnshinin', then Gray clouds, then sun again .. & so forth. It was like that the whole day. o_O Weird weather, I tell ya'! Back to where I was, We had a sub for 1st. but I didn't end up doing my work. I mean like, what's the point of doing ALGEBRA work when the class is GEOMETRY. Lame, foreal. Plus, I forget everything from Algebra.. Sad, huh? Ha, NOT. 2nd period was alright. It wasn't what I expected & to add to that, I had runny nose + that class was AC. Ergh. Lunch was alright. Finally got to go out to eat. Ash & I walked to buy food then back. Stayed at Canon's for lunch & 3rd period 'cause I didn't feel like going 3rd today -__- So at Canon's, Ash, Ethel, & I just chilled with Vicky & Chelsea. Then went to BLR & just took pics & whatnot. 4th was the same ol' shit. Nothing new for that class, whatever. Went straight to my grandma's afterschool & waited 'till my mom picked me up.

& That was majority of my day. As of right now, I have nothing to do. & I've been updating this site like crazy! Due to the fact that Myspace is really boring & nothing seems to interest me. So yeah. Mondays are ALWAYS boring; It's even more worst when you have your monthly!

Laterrrr.

Not suprised

And here I am again, the same position I was 2 years ago.
Why am I not suprised, right?

"It's not about who's being true in front of you, but who's STAYING true behind your back."

19<3

19 months with my the boyfriend & It couldn't get any better. We've been through hell & back, n' I can honestly say he's the one who knows how to handle me at my worst. I wouldn't change em' for the world! Happy 1 year & 7 months boyfriend!


Aside from that, I didn't go church today ;( I slept with a headache + a cold. & Woke up with my monthly, along with cramps! -_- Booohoo! How lame is that. Plus I knew if I sat at that chair, I would've been already complaining because of my meanass cramps! Ugh. So instead, My mother took me to wal-mart because I wanted to get something there. Then we went shopping for goodies. So that was that. I missed church today ;( Hmph. There's always next week, but every week means something. Blah! To top it off, I don't get to spend time with boyfriend today because I'm sick & stuck with cramps. So he went church instead.

On the upside, I'm planning to cut my hair tonight while my mom gets her tattoo retouched. Hm, not sure of that yet. Oh and! I got to see baby Elijah last night =) Boy, was that baby so tiny & cute ;D That adds on to 3 japaneses' in the family ( Zayla, Izaiah, & Elijah ). Lol, just thought i'd share [; Alrighty, Update later.

<3

Headache + Rain/Vog

Goood time to sleep in. Woke up alone. Meaning, no one was home >;[ Everyone went to work while I watched TV & tweaked on myspace. Updated in my page since I havn't done that in awhile. I also upgraded my profile to the 2.0 version. I guess it's okay? Atleast I can do more with my page & stuff. But still, Myspace BORES me. Haha. Anyway, back to where I was.. My mom came to get me after she finished work. She & I left to go pick up her pants, then to Wal-mart in Highlands. Ended up going to the shopping center, afterwards. Stayed there for, FOREVER. -___- Had a major headache, & I still do. So therefore, I'm not going to the 1st birthday party tonight, + I'm just not feeelin' the weather! It's so cloudy & rainy but yet, So HUMID. I think that's probably why I have a headache. But okay, I'l just stick with going to my grandma's house tonight, so I can spend the night there.

Update this thannng later, gonna go take a nap. My head needs it!

Cloudy, but sunny.

Thank god it's friday =)

Ugh welll, School was the same ol' shit. 1st period was really cloudy & dark -_- Presented our math project. I don't think we did so well ;| Well, I'll just hope that we did okay. 2nd period was alrighhht. Securities blocked the gate during lunch, ugh! Irritating. So instead, we just stayed at Pasalo's with the 'BOYS' haha. Read peoples blogggg site. Pretty damn interesting ;] 3rd period was whatevvvva. & 4th, I hate it as always! Total bullshi'.

I hope my parents plan something for tonight. I'm really not looking foward to staying home on a damn friday night. Lol. As of right now, I'm still babysittin' Izaiah since his parents went to the hospital because ELIJAH came out today ;D YAY! Another japanese in the family, hehe. Izaiah's been a handful but that's alright. Babies are babies. Duh. Izaiah kept my grandma up 'till 2 in the morning, I feeel so bad. ;( So i'm watching him .. Lol. Well, later bloggger <3

same shit different day.

Lol. That's my headline for today! I have nothing else to put ;P HAHA.

Anyway, got up this morning thinking to myself why I'm still home when it's already 6:30! I thought my mom woke up late again, but actually.. She decided to go to late work, I have no clue why? So I got ready at home. Then as soon as she starts her car again It shutt'd off! -_- At the time, we we're wondering 'WTF?!' It's weird because we put a new battery, it worked just fine after & then it breaks down AGAIN? Hm. o_O Strange huh? Anywho, She told me to take a day off from school but I wanted to go. I hate having missing work, it's bullshit. Charity took me to school, instead since that was my only ride. Got to see Zayla before school yay! ^_^ Hehe. Gave her my M&M's since I knew those we're her favorites =)

Anyway, got to school a BIT late. Nothing really new so I won't even go into details, Haha. Got to see boyfriend afterschool. Spent the time with him before he had to leave & I had too, also. Decided to go to my grandma's. Helped Chellie cut her pants to shorts! Haha, they turned our pretty nice :P Haha, Daddy picked me up afterwards. That was that. - I'm hella' tired. I still have laundry to do, BOO! OH! & I found out that my auntie's finally givin' birth YAY! 'Nother japanese in the family =D


motherrrr is hollerin', LATER :]

STUCK.

So, my day went by smooothly & quickly as posssible. (Well it felt quick to me.) So as usual, 4 periods a day, nothing new, nothing different.

1st period our group (well, just me n' erin since the rest we're too buisy talking!) did our project, & finished up what we needed. did a litttle practice before our actuall presentation. After gettin' that done, watched the boys with their stupid little magic tricks. Chong, HAHAHA was another story! Anywho, laughed a lot. Then reminisced on old days while looking at pictures from my old memory card for my camera. Wow. 2nd period I thought we we're all gonna get busted because of the sub on Monday, but then again, I though otherwise. Instead of that, He just gave us the test to correct. I'm not so happy about my score, so therefore i'm planning on re-taking it =) Lunch booohoo! I was hungry, & so was Ash. But, the securities blocked the gate, yet again! Ugh. So annoying! I mean atleast we're going back on campus. Geeez. Instead of spending our lunch walking to & back from manapua, we went to D building for the 1st time in a long ass time. It was pretty BORING. Nothing new, BLEH -_- 3rd period watched a movie AGAIN. I guess it was okay. Learned things about sex & std's & whatever else that has to do with a vagina & penis, LOL. Spent the class time working on my notebook since we had notebook check. The last one, thank god :) 4th period had sub. She was hilarious! Did my work even if it was so irritating. Owell, it'll pay off in the end, I bet ;P

So, after my mom finished work she picked Chelle & I up. Decided to go WAIKELE, for like the, BILLIONTH time this weeek, lmao. Went to Charlotte Russe. & Yada yada. After, we decided to go to the other side, But as soon as my mom put her key in the ignition & turned it .. THE BATTERY DIED. & I don't know why? So weird. It might have been KARMA, or just, just because. Dang, Reminds me of the time US THREE went to Pearlhighlands >_< Anyways, Yeah. That was that. We we're left with a DEAD BATTERY. So, like a nice man my daddy was, He came to fix it & do that jumpstart thingy. But it wouldn't work. Tried so many times 'till the point to where he got mad. x_x SCARY SHIT. I hate it when he's mad. Anyways, yeah.. Went to wal-mart to get a new battery. & Then back to Waikele.. & He put the new batt in & it worked. FINALLY. Went to longs to pick up my mothers medication, while Chelle & I continued our BUSINESS, lmao! Mother went to go Foodland to get my daddy's & brothers lunch for work tomorrow. I mean, It's only fair that my daddy had to drive to waikele then to wal-mart & back just for my mom, So my mom was being nice.. since she hasn't been in awhile. Just kidding. Haha!

So that was my day. Now I'm home, finally! I'm so tired. Didn't go to my grandma's again because I wasn't ready with my clothes & other things so I decided to stay home today. Pretty much done with MySpace for the night as well as blogger. I should call my boyfraaan now, I think he's awaiting my call.

Alrighty, NIGHTY NIGHT :)

What to do .. What to do ..

Update: Okay, so maybe my parents weren't as lazy as other days or as I thought they'd be. Lol, Ended up going Alas. Mommy took me shopping, And I'm hella' happy because she got me the BetseyJohnson cheeta print bag that I wanted for the longest! :) But it's a good thing that it was on sale, or I would've been spending over a $100 just for a bag. Not worth it if it was, haha. She also bought me two tops from forever21. Heh. I feel really bad she didn't get anything, just my dad & I. But nothing turned her on anyway. After alas, We went to BK afterwards to munch on somethin', then to waipahu market. Homebound by 3, & rested.

Today was good :) & To top it all off, ZAYLA came today! ;D ANOTHER PLUS. Spent time with herrr & played with her n' her toys, as always ^_^ Hehe, this day couldn't get any better. Mhm, school tomorrow again. I doubt i'm sleeping over my grandma's- My ma' told me to stay home tonight. So that's that. Speaking of school, I got homework to still work on .. So I should go & do that now, I'm procrastinating AGAIN.. Later!

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On this boring day. I find it totally lame if I have to spend this day just staying home doing nothing! Or maybe even spend this day at WAIKELE again! Waikele is just gettin' boring & boring-er each time I go there. Nothing NEW but STUCK UP WORKERS. Geez, I totally dislike stuck up workers who are so MEAN/SNOBBY & RUDE. Like seriously, If your gonna be a worker- atleast treat ya' damn customers right. I aint buyin' shit just for my money to come out of their damn paychecks. HAHA, jk ;P

ANYWAY! I wanna go alas today. Pearls seems so boring now a days, always the same shi' everytime I go there. But I doubt my lazy parents would want to drive all the way to town & back. Times like these, where I wish I was old enough to drive! I probably can take myself anywhere I wanted too even if it meant going around the island, HAHA. Oh geez, I'm dreaming. ONLY IF. Then again, I'm stillll young. BOOOHOO.

I'lll update later, bye blog!

Mooood swings.

I always hate Mondays. Only because it's the first day of week for school & I sometimes have nothing to wear. Whatta' bummmer! But on the brightside, I get to see my wonderfully friends, LOL. So today wasn't really much exciting. 1st period was alright. Got started on the group project since that was all I could do. Found out we had a sub for 2nd period & as always, MR. LEGASPI. I swear I think it's giving me hints! Haha. Anywho, didn't go to class for the first 10 minutes 'cause I thought he'd be a total itch on everyone, but I though otherwise. Just spent the whole 75 minutes talking stories with Ash & Alan like always. Nothing new, lol. Lunch Ash was super ass hungry so we went to the manapua, yet again. Hah, but today we didn't have to walk, YAY? Lol, Agni took us instead. Ate at Pec's classss. 3rd period was okay, I guess? Watched a video on the male/female reproductive system n' that was basically it. 4th period was just group work most of the time. BORING as always. Talked to Ash & Ethoe majority of the time.

Went to my grandma's afterschool & I fell asleeep 'till my ma' came to pick me up. She called & beep her horn so many times that she got so impatient & I got mad at her 'cause she couldn't wait. Gah, talk about IMPATIENT. >; I hate waking up all grouchy, dangit. Anywho, went home, ate dinner. Thought we weren't going anywhere but my dad wanted to head out. So we decided to go to Waikele (which is always boring because I go there like, EVERY WEEK). Nothing new, nothin' seemed to turn me on. Stood around while my parents shoppped. I started gettin' impatient. I was like, okay then mad then okay then irritated. I don't know. It's so annoying having to stand around for about 30 minutes in a Sunglass store, & never ended buying. Total bullshit. So after that, we left because my mom knew I was gettin' annoyed. Ended up buying malasadas. Brang it over to my grandma's & ate it there with everyone. Talked a shitload of stories about school, friends, Vegas, Disney World, & P.I. & they made it clear that we're goin' on a trip to Vegas in Feburary! YIPEE. Something to look foward too :) Headed homebound around 9:50.

And here I am, bloggggging because I'm so borred. I think my mom is planning to go to pearls & go retouch her tatt so I guess that's my plan for tomorrow. Heh.
Man o man, my boyfriend is being such a dick, geez! I swear he needs some sleep! He's been a handful, but so I am. >_< *eeeek. I love um' anyway! =) Haha.

Day missed.

Didn't blog yesterday because I was too buisy. But let's recap sha'll we? WE SHA'LL. [:

Saturday: Woke up hella' early, I dont know why? But kept myself occupied to the T.V. most of the time. Waited for my mom to finish work. She got off around 12 & she came to pick me up. Picked up food & then headed home.. Ate, then she & I fell asleep for a good 3 hours. As soon as I woke up, I had to get ready already to go to 2 family parties, So I did. Left to the first one, which was a Welcome Home party. It was really boring -_- so my mom, krissy, kim & I left to the 2nd party.. which was only next door to my grandma's house. HAHA. Pretty much just ate & hung out with my cousins. Reunited w/ Margie (My cousin) Ha. I was so bored that I literally threatened people on Margie's yahoo messenger thing, LOL. It was hilarious! ;P But I felt so mean, it just wasn't me so I stopped, haha. Went home afterwards. I was watching the food channel & the competition & I was hoping to stay up but my eyes ended closing, Lol.

Sunday: Woke up early again because chuch ^_^ Got myself ready, ate breakfast then left. It was great again. Auntie Pressie is ALWAYS funny, I swear. Haha, we sort of went off-topic when we we're discussing about how our body is a temple of god, Lol. Had a good laugh, though =) Class finished at 11:30. Went home, & Slept for 4-5 hours. Woke up & ate dinner then left to grandma's house (where I am right now).

Anyway, Schoool tomorrow. I find it really stupid how we have school tomorrow & then no school on Tuesday. -__- I kind of don't want to go but I have to push myself to do better, that way I make my parents happy as well as myself, also :) Heh, I still need to do homework so therefore i'll end this blogggg right here. Catch ya later, alligator!

FRIDAY<3

My blogs are like, really not worth-reading. Lol, only beacause I blog about my day & whatevers on my mind, basically.

Anyways, Last day of school for the week. Yipee? Haha, School wasn't all that great. Mom was off, so she dropped me off to school. 1st period wasn't anything really exciting I guess. Just got started on the project w/ my group but atleast I got it done & i'm proud of myself, once again :) 2nd period was boring sort of. Did my ch. 18 test & I don't think I did too good -_- But Canon never checks work, HAHA. Lunch, however, was truency sweep. Securities didn't let anyone out the front gate so that was a BUMMER for Ash & I. We we're so hungry too! >;[ OH WELL. 3rd period was okay. Learned to take our temperature with different types of measurements I think? & 4th was just the boring-EST ever! Did nothing but sleep & phone Acido because I was that bored.. I didn't even wanna watch the movie, so yeah. Then my mother came to get Dulce & I & headed to my house.

I'm pretty sure we're going out tonight since it's friday. & My daddy said so too. ;D
I hope I get my camera exchanged today, 'cause I'm waitin' on that Canon camera, HEH.

Alrighty, update later.

Overall, TODAY WAS GOOD. I'm strictly focusing on school because I wasn't quite satisfied with my grades from term 1 (even if I got 3.0). Heh, The only thing I hate the most is PERIOD 4 -_- I don't know if it's just because it's the last period of the day & i'm really tired, or because I just don't like her class at all. But I think it's both! HA. She just doesn't teach well, & I don't think she ever has anything good PLANNED for us. Lame, I tell ya'.

Anyway, aside from school.. I finally got the chance to tell my mom what i've been needin' to tell her. Even if I had to bite my tounge so I wouldn't cry! Hah, but I guess it's for the better. I was told not to keep anything in me like that without telling her because she wouldn't know how I feel. X_X

But on the plus side, I went to pearls today w/ Dulce, Janice, & Akeedo. I wanted to get something but I didn't get to find what I wanted -_- So my mom came to get us, & we headed home. After dinner, Ma' & I went to DonQuijote, then shopping afterwards. Didn't buy much because I wasn't in the mood. Blah! Now I'm hereeeeee doing this! & About to get off as soon as these pictures get edited.. My eyes are hella' irritatin' me right now. It's like one is watery but the other isn't. o_O

Alrighty, Catch ya' later!

Election Day..

So technically, I was suppose to spend the day with the girls- shopping of course.. but as always things don't go the way it's planned. & I was looking foward to it, but headche was kicckin' in by 12 & I got lazy to get ready. But on the plus side, boyfriend came over :) yay! Hehe, It felt good to finally see him since I havnt since forever long! Just watched T.V. while we fed ourselves. Had laughs here n' there & just basically spend quality time. After he left, I ended up falling asleeep again, for like, 3 hours.

Now i'm keeping myself occupied, on this & watching the campaign '08. & I have a strong feeling it'll be OBAMA. The first African-American president. There isn't anything wrong with that, but the world needs a CHANGE, agree? [:

Heh, Alrighty! Gonna go watch TV then shower in a tad bit. Until then i'll be keepin' my eyes on the T.V. since MYSPACE is actin' up. -_-

Peas<3

Accomplishing work.

Ugh, I woke up 645, -_- Forced myself to get up .. Got ready n' whatever. Gosh! I'm SO in need of a car ;( I hate walking my ass to school every mornin' & afterschool. Total bullshit.

1st period- OHG! 6 pages of math test! WTF right? >; But! It wasn't as bad as I though it'd be.
2nd period- Talked stories with Ash & Alan. Finished my work before the bell rang. YAY me! =) Accomplished something for once in period 2! HAHA.
LUNCH- finally cruised w/ the girls. After A whole weeek at Canon's w/ Assssh & Alan them. Hah. It was good [: Caught up w/ things. Geez, I've beeen missin' a lot, & how I missed them oh so much ;] HAHA.
3rd period- Finished up my flashcards, & Everything else. So proud of myself. I had extrra time, & I was totally falling asleep!
4th period- WAS STUPID as always! We had the R.S.V.P. people, or whatever. Splitt'd up into groups & I was put w/ Kevin, that buttcrack .. Oh & Some buncha' weird people. It was hella' boring.. My eyes we're closinnn'! But yeah, whatever. Lol, I hate that class. It's so stupid! So is the teacher. Ah, whatever.
Went to my grandma's afterschoooool.

& Now I have nothing better else to do but this besides watch the news.. & I'm so glad there's no school tomorrow due to Election day, hehe. Can't wait to see who's gonna win & who's actually sticking to there words (Obama or McCain) & As well as the Mayors. HA, their gettin' so competitive, especially 'cause i'm seeing all these Ad's on TV about Mufi from Kobayashi.. MEAN, I tell ya'.

Anyway! I think I worked hard enough today! HA. Hopefully I get to see boyfraaan tomorrow =) Okie dokie artichokie! I have yet to eat dinner & homework awaiting me.. Ciao for now [;

Busy weekends

Yes indeeed. Lol, Lets recap, sha'll we? [;

FRIDAY: Hallloweeen, lol. So I got ready for school. I didn't feel like dressing up -_- I have no clue why. But anyway, 1st peirod was okay. Mr. Pasalo was HARRY POTTER. He let us go from doing our test so instead we watched Meet The Spartans. 2nd period was whatever. Did work & whatnot. Talked stories.. Lunch, Stayed at Canon's for the 4th time this weeek, lol. Alan got us food :] Talked to them. 3rd period .. NOTES as always -_- 4h, Had a sub. Cruised. Took pics.

Mommy came to get me afterschool. Then headed to Kalihi. Got there, Got ready. & Headed to Alas.. -_- BAD PART OF THE NIGHT. So like, we had to wait for an hour & 30 minutes for the stupid bus, fuck! Then, when we got there.. Trick-or-treated lil' bit then had to go back to my aunties because family dramas. ;( haw, too personal. A lot of shit happend. Slept it off for awhile 'till maryann came home. She brang leslie & I to waikiki. HELLLA CRAZY! LMAO. so much funny people, people yelling, nude people, etc. It was crazy. Went to my cousins boyfriends working place (A Club) Walked around lil' bit. Saw a fight, i swear. People go SO CRAZY on Halloween. Lol. Got home around 1:30AM & crassshed! I was so exhausted!

Today: Woke up at 10ish. Mommy came to get me at 11. Went to go run errands. Then she dropped me off home while she went to my grandma's to help out for my grandpa's birthday. Ugh, boyfriend made me mad so I slept it off for a good 3 hours :) Daddy woke me up to get ready. & we left to my grandma's house. & Here I am, Lol. I swear my cousins are such rockband/guitar hero freaks! Their so good, i'm jay >;] HA. Welll, the night is going goood so far =)
Oh btw, first day of the month! geee, that went by so FAST huh? It's almost christmas ;P

Well, 'till then.. "PEACE TO THE WORLD" hahahahaha.

Stolen Camera

YA!! FUCK, I'm so pissed right now!! Fuck, I never knew people could be so fucking EVIL ever in their fucking life! IM SERIOUS. FUCK. I miss my camera! >;( SO MUCH PICTURES! & The best camera i've ever had! UGGGGH. Fuck whoever stole it, SHIT. They don't even know, fuck!! It's like why wont you go ask your fucking parents to buy you shit, you know? FUCK. Shame on all you fucking fucks out there who thinking you can steal shit & get away with it! Who In the world do you think you guys are?!!! FUCK. Did you not learn to keep your hands to you fucking selves in KINDERGARTEN?!???? UGH. Im so pisssssssssed >:

& To make things even more INTERESTING!, During 4th, I went to use the restrooom. So as soon as I was done, I opened the fucking stall door & the supid top of the door fell off & hit my fucking face! It's not even funny, fuck. & I died my hair black yesterday & i'm thinking it's my fucking hair giving me badluck! OR it could be because tomorrows halloween & everything is going so bad for me.. FUCK, I dont fucking know what it is. But I so don't feel like going to school tomorrow!! Nor do I feel like going Kalihi tomorrow >: HAW. Fuck.

The world is so CORRUPTED & EVIL. SERIOUSLY>

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Dissapointment

Almost all the things I heard today, DISSAPOINTED ME. Ugh -_- "You don't realize what you got, 'till it's GONE" TRUE RIGHT? I was in this alone before, Except now i'm in the middle of TWO but I only feel ONE'S pain. Man, this is the reason why people needa' stay faithful to those they got. Even if it means making you mad on a daily basis, or maybe even getting you mad because one's being hard-headed, or whatever It Is. Just because they do things you don't like or get you mad or irritated for whatever reason it doesn't mean you break-up to make up & make up to break-up. You should be thankful for what God gives you, And for what you have. Why is it that sometimes we never see what we got in front of our eyes? "Don't go looking for what you don't got, Look for what you DO got." TRUE, Ugh. I hate having to be in the middle of two & end up having people get mad at me, or even feeling dissapointed all the time. Then again, Life isn't easy. And we can't always have the easy way out. We all go through tough times in order for us to learn, right? ..

School, however ..

Was good as always. It was kinda' boring though, not like the past two days. But anyway, 1st period wasn't that bad. Ash & I used Mr. Pasalo's computer go on blogger & do our teenbiz. Then the class watched Alvin & The Chipmunks :D IT WAS SO CUTE. Like, really! Lol, So lame- I know. Then during lunch, Ash Alan Britney & I walked to manapua man for the third time in a row -_- SO FAT already, shit. Im not proud of it (So to keep myself from going, I left my wallet at home so I wouldn't need to go tomorrow, lol!) Stayed at Canon's to kill time during lunch. Period 2 was boring! We we're supposed to do our debate but didn't end up doing it, due to the fact that Canon was doing his computer work while the rest of us just sat there conversating & laughing. 3rd period however, was hecka' boring! AS ALWAYS. x_x Took notes most of the time. 4th period- Uh, we had A sub so that was a PLUS. Lol, He's pretty chill & Didn't bug us about not using the computer. So we tweaked on myspace & blogger. Lol, then It was the end of schoool, YAY. Another of going to all periods. [:

Lol, I don't think I blogged yesterday but I got to go shopping again =D Mom, Chelle & I went to pearls. I didn't really feel like shopppping .. But I got me some stuffs from Charlotte's =D YAY, lol.

'Till tomorrow, Night folks <3

Happy birthday grandpa! <3

I love school now. ONLY BECAUSE the classes are hella' shorter ;D It wont be for long, But i'll enjoy it now .. HA. Went to all peiods today, & I'm proud of myself. =) School was great, actually. Went to the manapua man w/ ashley during lunch. Then stayed in Canons. 2nd period was just notes -_- 3rd period was whatever. Notes, also but I was falling asleep! Lol, I dont know wha It is but I'm ALWAYS falling asleep in there. It isn't even as boring as 4th period. LAUGH A LOT to make time worth [: So that was good. Just Ethel, Ash, & I. HAHA.

Other than school, Still feelin' like shit about what I found out yesterday X_X BBL.


EDIT: Geee, my eyes are like really irritating me!! UGH. It's like watery! Everytime I wipe it, it just ends up watery AGAIN. what the fuck is that!? SO ANNOYING. I hope it's not a sign that i'm becoming sick AGAIN .. ;( SHIT, I have a lot of homework to catch up on. A lot of things to do, & Not only that, but talk to my mom *EEEK. I'm scared x_x

** GOOD GREIF, I didn't know It was my grandpa's birthday 'till earlier, HOW SAD right? -_- Anyways, Mom & I went to go get something for him so we went to Longs & Foodland; Bought him loads of peanuts (Because those are his favorites! :D), We also got him Chocolate Haupia Pie, & A bag of rice ;] LMAO. I know, kinda shame & silly but it'll be worth it. Better than nothing, right? Hm. Now i'm at my grandma's, just finished doing my teenbiz & eating pie :) Yay, today's goood for me. Hopefully it's like that tomorrow .. bye!

IT SUCKS.

HAHA, It's been a week since I had blogger. WOW? Lol, ANYWAY. Currently at my grandma's house because it'll be more convenient for my parents, for me to stay here so that they don't have to worry about dropping me off early in the morning & then ending up catching traffic all because of me. HM.

Anyways continuing about what I've been thinking.. So like, Someone else is in he same position as me except I havn't told anyone but my cousin. And the sucky part Is, I don't even know how to talk to my mom about this. I don't want to end up having family problems continuously, I don't want to end up having only ONE by my side, while I see the other one LATER. Let's just put It this way- I DON'T WANT TO LOSE WHAT MATTERS TO ME THE MOST, You know? I don't wanna live my life having many difficulties In the long run. I don't want to be someone different than I already am because this whole thing will end up affecting me. I really dont. But what other choices do I have? -_- If I let either one of them know, It'll only end up hurting me in the end .. Man .. Where do I go from here? -_-

So maybe I lett'd he whole world know now that I posted this, But I know there's others out there that feel the same way I do, & hurt more than I do & knows how It feels like.. That's why I pray for all of you & for myself as well because afterall, WE ALL GOT GOD. And he's probably the only one who knows what i'm going through and how it's hurting me..

BAD MORNING,

UH HUH. I guess I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today! HA. Mother woke me up at 9. Got ready for church, went downstairs to eat BUT there wasn't any plates left besides this small ass plate & my mom expects me to eat off of a SMALL plate. What's gonna fit on there?!, ONE PEICE OF EGG AND HALF A SCOOP OF RICE? So stupid, I tell ya'. SOMETIMES THINGS ARE SO UNFAIR. Being that I was hungry! -_- UGH. I know, talk about FATASS. So I forgot about it. I went back up then down when I finished gettin' ready. Then my mom starts bitchin' & trippin' for no reason! UGH so that made me even more mad that I CRIED out of frustration. Got to church & told Dulce. But then as always, Church makes me happy =) Lol, So I forgot about it. And the funny thing is, we learned about LOVE today & the 10 commandments. And the 4th Commandment was "YOU SHALL HONOR YOUR MOTHER & FATHER" Bwahaha. I felt like it was hinting me or something. o_O But overall, church was good as always. What can I say right, GOD IS GOOD<3 =) No doubt.

So my mom came to pick us up. And I totally forgot about what happen this morning. She said SORRY to me. So it was whatevers, [: Lol. Afterall we did learn about love, so I have to love HAHA. Anywho, my mom & I went to go pamper ourselves since we didn't want to stay home. I got a manicure while my mom got A pedicure and she got to color her hair. Lol. Got my bangs trimmed. But the suckiest thing is, the lady that did my manicure SUCKED butt -_- Too bad TINA wasn't there to do my nails. It would have been a lot more easier. But that's okay, nails is nails right? Right. So we headed home after.

OH! & I found out some things today that really brang me down & got me thinkin'. -_- As much as I don't want to think about it .. It's like HOW CAN I NOT, You know? Being that she's my mom & this is happening. UGH. I've been hinting her down this whole day but I dont think she notices that what she's doing Is wrong. MAN I feel so bad .. I'm so afraid of letting others know because it'll hurt my family as well as MYSELF in the long run. ;( Gosh, this sucks!

Half of my weekend

Just got home not too long ago. Spent half of my weekend at Kalihi. Man, It's ALWAYS fun there. ;) Lol. But anyways, Rode bus afterschool to Kalihi since that was my only transportation (SAD HUH?). HA, Went to my auntie's house. Then went to get food that we could sneak In into the movies, that way we wouldn't have to spend A lot on JUNK FOOD. Ended up at 7-11 then headed to the movies. Like always, my cousin got us In for FREE =D Lol, Watched SAW 5 first. Ugh, & I totally lost my apetite x_x That shit was nasty, foreal. But anyways, after SAW 5, my cousins & I sneaked into the 10:10 HSM3. I gotta' admit, even if their was so much singing, the movie was hella' good ;D EHE. After that we waited for my cousin to finish work (which was around 12) Got back to my cousins house & crashed. I was hella' TIRED -_-

And as for today .. HM, lol. It was good also. Stayed at Kalihi since we we're having a small BBQ for my grandpa's 80th birthday ^_^ Hehe, well now I'm finally home. OH, how it feels good to be home ;] LOL. Mkay, well church tomorrow; Something that I'm looking foward to! :)

Man, I like blogging. Even if the things I write are like USELESS. [: This is so much better than MYSPACE. I think I tend to blog more than I tweak? Lol, yay me? HAHA. Only because MySpace Is corrupted by so many " asdfghjkl people " Lol, Doesn't make sense but okay, whatever ;p IM TIRED!

Alrighty, NIGHTNIGHT =D

Yay,

Currently in 4th period. Okay, so yeah. I made the effort to go only because we we're having a test. But that's okay, my day is going so far, so good ;] haha, that's a first. Usually I'd be cranky as always but today is Friday so that's something to be happy about. Lol. Anywho, spending my weekend at Kalihi, again. Probably going to watch SAW 5 or HSM3L tonight since my cousin works and is willing to get us in for free ;] YEY!

Alright, gonna get back to doing work, that way my annoying teacher won't bust me. LATER GATOR :)

Better than yesterday

Havn't blogged yesterday due to the fact that I didn't have my laptop with me. But that's okay, I lived. LOL. Anywho, Yesterday was boring. Classes we're stupid especially my fourth period. The teacher Is so DUMB to me. She whines and complains about how we're always acting like 5th graders. Geez, It's her fault she gives us so much little work (that she never makes us turn in besides the UN-important ones). So dumb. & She teaches us like we're 5th graders. So we're all talking so softly right, & she's over yelling " GUYS THIS IS SERIOUS. STOP TALKING & GET YOUR WORK DONE " Like geez, you make like you never talked in your life. SO ANNOYING, I tell ya! She's trippin' for no reason. But whatever.

TODAY, however, was good. Well, not really. BETTER THAN YESTERDAY. So 1st period was always A drag knowing how much work he gives us now. I feel so stupid, I never seem to finish them. How lame. But anyway, did group work with Ash, Chong, & Jayr. Talked stories w/ Ash & the usual, listen to the Itouch & do work. Then 2nd period, Finished up work that I didn't get to do yesterday (because the sub took forever long & kept talking) & then did group work. As always, It's Ash, Alan, & I. Got our debate posters done and whatnot. Mmm, then it was lunch. Just chilled w/ the usuals. Talked stories w/ michelle them. So silly, lol. & Then I was looking foward to go to 3rd period. But Chelle calls me up because she didn't wanna go to 3rd, But I wanted to. BUT THEN, Mr. Legaspi was our sub so I didn't end up staying. I didn't feel like dealing with his bullshit, today. And I'd always have Bad vibes around him. It's like he's so UPTIGHT. So yeah, I met up with Chelle & her friend dropped us off to my house. Ended up falling asleep for a good 2 hours =) FINALLY. I needed that rest. Lol. & I didn't feel like going to 4th period would be worth It. She's lame, like really.

Around 5ish, Zayla came over. & She totally made my day A lot better ;D (SHE ALWAYS DOES) Lol, I played w/ her & her barbie toy since she didn't have anyone to play with. LOL, & we just laughed for a good 10 minutes. She's so silly but cute ^_^ lol, then yeah. They left, & My mom, Chelle, & I decided to go out. So we did. Didn't feel like spending much today because I spent a lot yesterday PLUS, my boyfriend was being an asshole. But that's okay, I still love em' =) Ehe. HM- well that was pretty much my whole day.

Can't wait for tomorrow =) FRIDAY AGAIN. Damn, days are just going by so quickly huh? [; BYE <3