A lil' somethin'

"In all, to all you so called "men", You can only push a girl away for so long until she walks out of your life on her own. So be careful and make sure this is what you want. Because once she turns around, she isn't coming back." - Maria Tran


This is hella' true! I love her blogs so much :D <3 Ehe.

Mhm, LIFE GOES ON ..

100% - Boyz 2 men

Recap on Friday- period 1 was same ol' shit. talked stories with ash n' makmak. the usual. got my work done :D period 2 wasn't much. presented n' shit then organized my binder. lunch was good! followed me cousin n' his dumb mokebangah friends. yadiyadiya. good times, ;D so fun! period 3 was stupid. did our 2 laps and I banged my head on Michelle ;( So sore! LOL. Worked on our health triangle thingy. Talked stories with Chantelle them. It was pretty interesting n' hilarious :P period 4 was boring as always. Afterschool, went with ash n' ethel to go cruising with jason n' ash's cousin myrna. Bought subway n' left since I was headin' over to Kalihi. Cousin picked me up n' headed to Times since she was cooking Salmon! WHICH WAS HELLA GOOD :D Cruised the whole night n' talked stories.

Today- Was the BJ PENN fight thing. Didn't watch it but my daddy n' brothers did. Mommy picked me up from Kalihi around 4. Went to Lheslies party for awhile. Now i'm at my grandmas.. HM. Nothing much happennin'. Tomorrows SUPER BOWLLL! :D I think we're headin' over to my cousins house after RCIA. yayyyy! :)

Thoughts.

I've noticed that I'm really starting to drift away from my New Years resolution, which is not good because I promised myself that I would try my hardest.

I've been so focused on so much things that arn't even important. But yet I keep it to my attention when I should be focusing on the things that will end up helping me in the future. Take school for example! It's only beeen a few weeks since we got back and already i'm trying to cut class and slack! I hate it so bad, but I can't help it at the same time. I'm willing and trying to do better and it's only up to me to make that choice. Making my parents happy is a good feeling and I just want to make them happy like I did in freshmen year! Straight A's or just lack one B but still good right? Now I'm straight B's with one C, boohoo! And their not even happy with it -__- Ugh. I really need to stop procrastinating on my work and get my shit done when it needs to be done, you know? Sounds lame but i'm for real! HA.


Another thing.. I've been writing so much blogs about why I'm mad. I'm always retaliating to everything ESPECIALLY when it comes to HIM. I feel so frustrated that the only way I can vent is to blog because no one ever seems to understand me when it comes to these kinds of things. Like seriously, he needs to know that It's my life. I wanna live it the way I want to not the way someone tells me too, you know? I just wanna live up my highschool years before they're over. Fuck the plastic girls, the girls who love to talk about others, the girls who stare at you up and down, the boys who think they can get with a DMPC when really the girl is only worth a dime, the boys who try to fuck everything up for you or ones who take the fun away from you .. JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE.. You know? My brother told me, as much as possible to live up my highschool years because it'll go by supppppper fast! And by the time you know it, we're walking down the allley with our grad partner thingy :P Ugh, welll yeah! Point is, I don't need your interference with my life. Live yours, while I live mines. Stop worrying about other people and worry 'bout yourself. Blah blah blahhhhhhhhhhhh Life goes on! Stop worrying 'bout your past because you'll end up missing your future.

I think love just isn't for me right now. HAHA. But that's okay, :) Good things fall apart so better things fall together. And like they all say: Everything happens for a reason. Shouldn't go searching for love, let love find you, nawmeannn? ;]

And last one- My goal for this whole damn year is to complete Communion & head on to Confirmation! HAHA. YAY! ^_^ Hm, I mean my RCIA class is so great! And I love everything we learn each Sunday because everything always seems to make sense and is meaningful. Ahhhhhh. But I find it funny how some girls go to Church every weekend but they NEVER learn to love their neighbors. HAHA .. Hm. yeah, We'll see what god has planned for me. Heh.

Mkay, well I'm exhausted after laughing a shitload at Ethel's, afterschool. And then my mother dear wanted to go to Wal-mart. Did a lot of walking today, Now my leggggs hurt. >_<

UH

Today was just not my day, for real.
Walked to school with my cousin Margie. We never talked the whole walk there, lol. And that was the best conversation i've had ;P HAHAHA! Just kidding. Geometry was whatever. Mr. was starting to piss me off a bit 'cause like, I wasn't doing work and that girl at his desk kept staring. And he kept giving me stink eyes everytime i'd ask Michelle for help! >;[ Biology was stupid. But I did get my work done :D OH! That reminds me, I need to get my project done. I swear, Mrs. Komm is crazy! We only had 3 days to work on this shit. NO wait, 2 days since the first day was just her explaining. Ugh. Lunch was whatever. Cruised with the girls. Talked to Ethel & Michelle, mostly. Cruised a bit at F building 'cause Michelle didn't wanna see something that she doesn't wanna see. Health was good today! Ran 2 laps within' 6 minutes but I beat the clock, so no pushups for me :) Worked on group work. I love my group, yay! ^_^ After 3rd, I went home. Didn't feel like going to 4th for some odd reason o_O oh well! Chellie & I walked it. Babysat, cousin cut my hair a lil, and helped my cousins to their work. Mommy picked me up afterwards.
Today was boring, like the usual -__- So not my day!

But on the bright side, Zaylarina is coming over tonight :D Havn't seen that sunshine since last week thursday and it already feels long ! HAHA. Well, daddy's kicking me offf. He wants to play solitaire, how weird o_O


Later ♥

YOUR FUCKED UP.

SO MANY TIMES I'VE TRIED TO FORGET WHY WE FOUGHT JUST SO THAT YOU'D HAVE THAT CHANCE TO BE WITH ME AGAIN. TIME & TIME AGAIN, YOU'VE HURTED ME OVER AND OVER, I GAVE SO MANY CHANCES AND STILL.. YOUR STILL TAKE ADVANTAGE. YOUR SO USED TO ME GIVING YOU CHANCES THAT WHEN I FINALLY HAVE THE STRENGTH TO LEAVE, YOU GET ALL PISSED AND START BRINGING UP MY PAST A FUCKING GAIN. I TOLD YOU A MILLION TIMES ALREADY THAT I DON'T WANT ANYONE RIGHT NOW BECAUSE IT'S NOT EVEN WORKING OUT WITH THE BOTH OF US, PLUS ON TOP OF THAT I WANNA BE ABLE TO MAINTAIN AND GET BACK ON TRACK WITH MY GRADES! IT AINT EASY. I DONT KNOW WHY YOU CAN'T JUST LET ME BE! >:| ACCEPT MY DECISION. AND IF YOU CAN'T THEN I DON'T KNOW HOW THE HELL YOU'LL BE ABLE TO LOOK FORWARD TO YOUR FUTURE WHEN YOU KEEP LOOKING BACK!

YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE IN MY SHOES. HOW YOU CONSTANTLY TOTURE ME WITH THESE WORDS AND ALWAYS ASK ME QUESTIONS THAT I'VE ALREADY ANSWERED TO OR ONES THAT YOU ALREADY KNOW! DO YOU NOT HAVE COMMON SENSE AT ALL? YOU THINK ITS SO EASY FOR ME TO WASTE MY FUCKING BREATH TRYING TO EXPLAINING EVERY DAMN TIME WHY I'M OUT, WHO I'M WITH AND WHAT THE FUCK I DID WITH THE PEOPLE I HANG OUT WITH?! DO YOU THINK IT'S EASY TO DEAL WITH SOMEONE WHO LOCKS YOU DOWN CONSTANTLY?!? AND YOU THINK IT'S EASY FOR ME TO HEAR "YOU FLIRTING WITH BOYS YEAH" WHEN WE'RE ON THE FUCKING PHONE WHEN YOU FUCKING KNEW I WAS YOUR GF! GAH, IF I WANTED TO FLIRT THEN I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN WITH YOU! I'M NOT FUCKING LIKE THAT. AND IF YOU THINK I AM THEN YOU MUST NOT KNOW ME. WHICH IS FUCKING SAD! YOU THINK WHEN I'M WITH MY FRIENDS, THAT AUTOMATICALLY RIGHT OFF THE BACK YOU KNOW I'M WITH GUYS? AND WHAT IF I'M NOT? (WHICH I'M NOT MOST OF THE FUCKING TIME) WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I CAN ACCEPT YOU BEING A BOYFRIEND THAT THINKS OF ME AS A GIRLFRIEND THAT FLIRTS. WHAT KIND OF BOYFRIEND IS THAT? YOU CAN'T KEEP LOOKING BACK ON MY FUCKING PAST! MY PAST IS MY PAST LEAVE IT BEHIND! FUCK.

I'M SO TIRED OF TRYING TO ANALYZE EVERY SITUATION WHEN I CAN JUST LEAVE IT AND MOVE THE FUCK ON. BUT IT SEEMS I CAN'T BECAUSE EVERYWHERE I FUCKING GO I'M ALWAYS HEARING FROM YOU! YOU NEVER SEEM TO LEAVE ME ALONE. I TOLD YOU SO MANY TIMES THAT I DON'T WANNA GO CHASING HAPPINESS I WANT HAPPINESS NATURALLY. I'M TIRED OF PRETENDING TO BE HAPPY WHEN IM NOT! IT'S NOT ME SO BUILD A BRIDGE AND GET THE FUCK OVER IT.

AND TO MAKE SHIT CLEAR WITH YOUR FUCKING BRAIN- I AM NOT SEEEEING FRANK! I DON'T WANT TO SEE HIM AND I DON'T FEEL LIKE SEEING ANYONE. I DONT' WANT ANYONE SO LEAVE ME AND WHOLE FRANK SHIT ALONE. FRANK HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME AND SO DO I SO GET OVER IT! JUST BECAUSE HE'S PAST YOU DONT HAVE TO USE HIM FOR A REASON TO MAKE ME FEEL FUCKING BAD FOR YOU BECAUSE I DONT!!! YOU JUST DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND.. AND THAT'S ONE THING I'VE ALWAYS WANTED FRM YOU. IS TO UNDERSTAND. AND TO TRUST ME. BUT YOU NEVER UNDERSTOOD ME, YOU NEVER TRUSTED ME SO WHAT MAKES ME THINK YOU EVER WILL?..

I'M DONE. I AM. YOU KNOW THAT, SO ACCEPT IT. STOP TRYING TO ACT LIKE I'M DOING EVERYTHING WRONG! STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME LOOK LIKE THE BAD PERSON WHEN I'M NOT. ALL I WANT IS FREEEDOM AND MY FUN BACK. YOU ALWAYS KNEW HOW TO TAKE AWAY MY FUN FROM BEING WITH MY FRIENDS AND THAT'S WHAT THEY HATE ABOUT ME.. BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS RUIN MY FUCKING FUN IN EVERYTHING. JUST LET ME FUCKING BE ALREADY. LIFE GOES ON.. READ IT LEARN IT AND ACCEPT IT. LIKE THEY SAID: STOP TRYING TO PUT THE PIECES BACK TO A BROKEN GLASS, BECAUSE IN THE END YOU'LL END UP HURTING YOURSELF! SO BUILD A BRIDGE AND GET OVE RIT ALREADY. I'M TIRED OF TRYING .. OF TRYING TO BE HAPPPY BUT YOU ONLY MADE THINGS WORSE! I'M TIRED OF TRYING TO ACT LIKE EVERYTHINGS OKAY BUT IN REALITY IT ISN'T BECAUSE OF YOU TORTURING ME WITH THESE STUPID DUMB QUESTIONS THAT YOU ASK. YOU MAKE LIKE ITS SO EASY FOR ME.. WELL GUESS FUCKING WHAT? IT ISN'T, OKAY?!
SO LIVE YOUR LIFE WHILE I LIVE MINE! AND DON'T SAY YOU REALIZED BECAUSE I'VE HEARD TO MANY TIME BEFORE AND 'TILL THIS DAY I STILL CAN'T SEE WHAT YOU REALIZED BECAUSE YOU REALLLY SITLL ACT THE SAME! AND DON'T TELL ME YOUR SORRY BECAUSE I HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR SORRIES. APPARENTLY YOUR SORRIES MEAN NOTHING TO ME ANYMORE. SO LEAVE IT ALREADY. JUST KNOW THAT I FUCKING TRIED OKAY. I REALLY DID! BUT EVERYTIME I TRIED TO MAKE THINGS WORK YOU KNEW JUST HOW TO FUCK IT UP A G A I N..

IM TIRED OF EVERYTHING. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS.. no one..
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Earrrly bird

I'm up pretty damn early.
Reason being 'cause I can't go back to sleep after my mom dropped me off. But whatever. So yesterday I went to RCIA and we learned about forgiving which was a good topic.
"If your holding grudges, let it g o. . ." - auntie precy.

So basically I'm letting go of my grudges against people because holding grudges against a person only makes me angry when I could spend that time being happy.. mhm. And plus, it's no used holding grudges against someone when you know that they don't care. It's like your giving them the attention, you know? They're not even supposed to be worth your time. With that being said, Just "Let go, & Let God." Other than that, there really isn't anything special to update on. Its 640 so I need to get ready! sorry for all the typos, I'm still getting used to my G1. J)

Btw, GOOD MORNING.. :D

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UPDATE:
Period 1: Completed 3 pages of Geometry while conversating with Ash & Makmak.
Period 2: I felt super lazy because she talks way too much! >_<
Lunch: Me & Ash we're supposed to get our workers permit, BUT Mrs. Whateverhernameis wasn't there. Walked around. Chilled with the girls for a bit. Met up Ricky for Manapua but RICHARD ATE ALL THE CHICKEN! Fatass! HAHA, just kidding richhard gum-meow.
Period 3: Uyeda's class is always fucking chill, tell me not? :) Supposed to run laps today but it was pouring. Instead, he tolds us like a million of things to do when/if we get raped by someone, or get date raped. HA. It was pretty interesting 'cause I learned new stuffs ^_^
Period 4: ALWAYS a bore. When was it not, right? Well, tweaked on my G1. Played stupid snake & beat'd my highscore! AND tetris, ha. Read the book & it was funny.
Afterschool: Went home to Izaiah crying! HAHA. Hugged the shit out of him since he cried this morning 'cause he didnt want my cousin & I to leave ;( So sad. So I fed em' & played with him. Daddy picked me up at 4.

Now I have yet to do:
- 3 Health article summaries
- Emanuals story worksheet
- Find 2 GOOD health articles
- Get a journal & re-write my journal entries
- Complete the list of shit to do for Uyeda
- And have a goood night sleeep!

So gay, hit up my G1. LATER.

Random thoughts.

- ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS!! Emphasize on ALWAYS, know what you deserve and never settle for anything less. No matter how much you want it, you have to learn that it's not all about what you want, rather about what you deserve.

- Don't give in no matter how much you love the person because the more you give in, the more they'll end up taking advantage of you because THEY KNOW that your willing to give in anytime.

- Don't look for love, let love find you. Chances are, the more you go searching for love, the more you'll end up gettin' hurt. You don't want that, now dont you? ;]

- If you don't like something about yourself, then CHANGE IT. Everything is up to you, NO ONE ELSE.

- STOP searching for what you WANT, REALIZE what you actually already HAVE.

- For all you dumb younger-than-me couple; LOVE doesn't mean to be abused by your boyfriend everyday, every other day, or once a week. IT DOESN'T matter. No boy has the right to hurt a girl physically because if your boyfriend loved you, then he WOULDN'T hurt you.

- I find it really funny how you and your boyfriend has only been going out for 3 days and your already saying 'I love you' HA HA.

- I hate girls who think they know every fucking thing. And those who think that they're the bomb. SHIT.. get over yehselves, PAAA LEAZE.

- GUYS who think they top dawg and can beat the shit outta' anybody are just bunch of low-lifes, for real. Stop actin' yo' dick size asswipe, ACT YOUR AGE =)

- "what you don't see with you eyes, don't witness with your mouth" That's the same as- "Don't assume! You make an ASS out of U and ME." ;)



Yeah, just thought I'd mention everythiing on my mind since I really don't want to blog about my day ;P BWAHAHAHA. Anyhoots, News is on & I sha'll watch :) Hit me up on my G1 & keep me company, why don'tcha? ;]

HALO

I love this video for some odd reason o_O HAHA.

O B A M A for change.

Today goes down in history :D HAHA. Woke up hella' early to get dropped off to grandma's house. Watched the Inauguration all morning 'till I headed to school.

Period 1- Pretty good. Talked stories with Ash & Did work :)
Period 2- Irritating! -_- Took notes, graphed, lab skits, & more notes! >_<
Lunch- It was alright. Chilled at Canon's.
Period 3- Ran 1 lap around the courtyard. Listened to Uyeda talk the rest of the class.
Period 4- WAIT, before period 4, I was walking to class and I didn't hear Ashley calling me 'till the 3rd time she yelled my name from a far across the fricking courtyard. HAHAA, it was funny 'cause she looked like an idiot calling my name while I was walking faster & just ignoring her! HAHAHA. Anyhoots, 4th was okay. Wrote about the Presidential Inauguration.
Went to my grandma's afterschool. Played with Ej (Elijah) & Izaiah to kill time 'till my mom came to pick me up.

Currently watching the Inauguration still but i'm bored to death! -__- I can't wait 'till I get my new phone tomorrow, or maybe thursday. New homework to do, shiiiiiii.

Weekend at Kalihi

Friday- No school, didn't do shit. I don't even know why they canceled school! It would've been a good weather for school ;P Finally got internet. Got dropped off to Waikele where I met up with my cousins. Slept over Kalihi.

Saturday- Went to Circuit City since their closing down. Not much of SALE, lame. Still expensive -_- Went back home & just cruised. E-bay'd the whole night ;D Cousin won me a Wii remote + Nunchuck! So technically I save about $20 buckarooos right there! YAY.

Sunday- Woke up early to head to church with them. Mass finished @ 9:30, went back home then packed up whatever we needed & headed down to Todai's with my cousins ^_^ Good food, plus Crepes! :D :D :D exxxxtra smiles* Went back Circuit City.. Cousins just bought DVD's & what not. Then headed back to kalihi. Slept when we got home & Dealed with dumb ugly problems again. Whatever.


Probably gonna go somewhere again tomorrow with the cousins. Hopefully I bump into ashley them since they might be headin' to where I'm going, haha :) Mkay Gonna go shower, watch movies with the cousins then i'm callin' it a night <3

"I've learned.."

"I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.

All you can do is be someone who can be loved.

The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care,

some people just don't care back. And it's not the end of the world.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust,

and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life,

but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.

After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself

to the best others can do,

but to the best you can do.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people,

It's what they do about it.

I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it,

there are always two sides.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.

It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going

long after you think you can't.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done

When it needs to be done

regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,

but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,

but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.

Same goes for true love.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,

doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,

they're going to hurt you every once in a while

and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.

Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,

the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,

but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean that they don't love each other.

And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual

ahead of their actions.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing

and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter the consequences,

those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours

by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,

when a friend cries out to you,

you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing,

as well as talking,

can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life

are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice

and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

I've learned to love

and be loved.

I've learned... "

-Omer B. Washington

Slacking & stressing.

Lately I havn't been on a roll! -_-
I'm fucking lacking sleep, not even doing work, & missed one day of school & not even finishing my essay. How annoying! I promised myself to do better this year, & I hope I AM. Ugh, lack of sleep is really getting to me. Stress also! >;[ Akeedo has been stressin' me a lot. And i'm really not ready to deal with it AGAIN. Actually, I'm done with it. I've been through hell and back every damn day.. But yet, he never realizes or learns his lesson. So it's useless for real. I'm fucking tired of explaining things & him assuming i'm doing shit when I'm really not. Ugh, whatever! I know, I'm suppose to be trying but if he's not trying then it doesn't make sense for me to try. Plus, what's love without trust? NOTHING.


On the other hand, School was effin' gay. I hate my 2nd & 3rd. Supposed to switch out for 3rd but Canon doesnt have a 3rd! ;( fuck. So anyways, classes we're hella boring! Like always. Afterschoo- Chilled with Ash, Ethel, Ashs' boyfriends & his friends. Zippys, Chocolate beaccch then Ethels house. Chilllll, I telll ya (= Pretty much just cruised and captured the moment, of course since me ash & ethell we're wearing plaid today, lol.

Well whatever i'm exhausted. I hope we don't have school on Friday since another storm is on it's way! You know what that means ... BE PREPARED for possible power outages, yet again. But let's hope there's not any :)

* Yawwwwn. The pillows callin' me ;]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ETHELL

;D & I don't regret spending the last 1 & a half days with Ethel & Ash. HAHA. Slept over Ethel's Sunday night since it was orignally me & Ashs' plan. Didn't go to sleep 'till 2 in the AM! >;] We started talking about ghost stories and superstitions, and how the ghosts we're gonna kill me first since I was in the middle! HAHA, man o man! You wouldn't believe what kind of sober fun we had! HAHAHA. Yeah, thats right .. I SAID SOBER Bxtch! :P Kidding. Anyhoots, yeah .. It was fun :) Woke up around 650'ish. I couldn't even open my eyes so they laughed at me, idiots! HAHA. Walked to ashs' house to grab her stuff then headed back to ethels. Ashley even almost got banged for talking and not checking left to right before crossing! I saved her life! HAHA. Made us breakfast & then got ready. Headed to Pearls & met up with everyone. Ate at CPK for Ethel's birthday ^_^ Watched Unborn, which was kinda gay. It wasn't even scary to me at all 'cept the part where the old mans neck went upside down! >_< But other than that, BOO. HA. Walked around & then decided that we'd go home. Stopped by for Jamba Juice then Jason dropped us off at transit & bussed it to Ethels. Homebound around 7:30. Today was a good day.


Boohoo, we got school again tomorrow -_- And not only that, I have to go school early since we still have to pick up schedules! How annoying! I hope I have good people in my classes. Hmph.

And I missed Secret Life of An American Teenager, crap! This sucks, I have to sleep early 'cause i'm wakin' up 5AM, fxck.

Life sucks ;( HAHA.
ASH: Do you need a straw?
ME: No why?
ASH: To suck it up bitch!

HAHA, Congrats to Jason & Ashley :)
Nightynight!

REAL EYES, REAL LIES, REALIZE

REALIZE- Something you should start learning.

It's the shit you fucking do to me that's makes me tired of dealing with you everyfuckingday. A girl only HAS so many things to handle but you make like I have time for your shit every minute of every hour! You think it's SO damn easy for me to deal with a relationship like ours but it's not easy, and no one said it would be. I feel like you put so much on my hands, you make me handle everything while your over there bossin' me around for something I DONT do. Most times your mad at me, WHY?! 'Cause your assuming things that you THINK i'm going to do?! I feel like I should'nt have gave in so many times because you only take advantage of every chance you get. And this time it's foreal. I've done enough for you. I tried to handle things the best way I could but stilll, no matter how many times i've explained things to you, YOU STILL don't understand. You keep on assuming and thinking i'm doing wrong, but THINK AGAIN. I only tried to make things work but you keep mouthing off like you know shit when you really dont! >;( You always think you can just fucking lock me down and have control over me, BUT YOU CAN'T AND YOU WONT. Sometimes I wish I could just forget you & leave, but I'm not fucking like that >;( And even when I just start to leave you alone give me these dumb bullshit text messages about how your realizing shit, when your really not! UGH, tough love for real.

"All you gotta do is love me and be loyal. Don't indulge in my past- fuck what happened before you..." -50 Cent

SUN day

I though the storm was still here? But I guess the weather people we're right- It was gonna pass by quickly! :P


So back to RCIA class it was. Went to class. Learned new things for the new year. After class, dropped of Dulce & picked up my cuzzo & headed home! Tweaked on the Wii for the longest and ate delicious crab! :D MMM, YUM. Mother decided that she wanted to go shopping so we headed to pearls. Shopped & spent my $50 gift card to FOREVER21, finally! Haha. Bought clothes and what-not. Just walked around for a couple of hours & then homebound. Played Wii again & ate pretzels. Mommy got a cut on her finger so we went to longs to get bandages and pick up her medication. Now i'm bloggging 'cause i'm bored. But I wont be bored the whole night since i'm sleepin' over Ethel's tonight! YAY! :D

Tomorrow's Ethel's birthday, can't wait!

FRIDAY

Bride Wars & Unborn comes out! WAAAAAH*
MOVIE TIME 8) LOL, havn't been to the movies in awhile.

Let's recap on my day, sha'll we? WE SHALLL! :)

Woke up extra early! Damn, my eyes we're stuck, lol! Not used to waking up hella' early anymore. So, my mother dropped me off to my cousins house in Kalihi. Watched TV, then fell asleep. Woke up 15 before 10. Watched baby Matt & whatnot. Got ready to go out & headed to alaz. Bought me a Hello Kitty bag since it was 50% offf :D And cheap cute slippers at slipper house for 5 buckarooos! Yeah, actually it's sidewalk sale so that's why its hella' cheap ;) Anywhos, cousin came to picked us up. Cruised around Waikiki then picked up J.R. from work & headed back to the house. Watched Matt for the remainder of the time while waiting for my mom to get me. Headed home, & man oh man! Can traffic get any worse on this damn rock?! >;[ UGH. Well yeah, the rest after is bunch of non-sense.

I did, however, accomplish my skills level on the Wii, lol. Sounds lame, but whatever! Well schools almost here! >;[ Even if I hate it, I got to keep tryin' 'cause I want to prove my parents wrong! Unlike others who say everythings hard but they're not even trying.. >_< Not to be mean.

Okay, bye!

Yesterday > Today

Yesterday was SO MUCH better than today. Well, except the part where Zayla came over today :D

But anyway, Janice, Margie, & Agni planned to make a 'suprise' birthday party for Dulce & the plans finally pulled through. HAH. Suprised Dulce although the time was kind of running down, but who cares right? I knew she loved the suprise :D There wasn't much of us but we still made the most out of it, well atleast I TRIED too. I didn't cruise with them like this for the longest, & damn it feels good ;) So we chilled, ate, played Wii, took a couple pictures, & just talked stories. I left kind of early though 'cause my mother- as always.

And today? Oh gosh, can my day get any boringer?! I basically sat my ass down on the couch playing Wii or sat my ass on my bed MySpacing on this stupid laptop! So to make use of my time, I did a workout on the damn Wii, playing boxing. Mhm, Zayla them came over later in the day. Helped Charity with her wedding things & kicked back with my neice :D ^_^ She always knows how to make me smile ^_^ <3

Broken - Lifehouse

I wish..

You made it easier to understand.
You knew how it actually felt like in my shoe.
You knew how many times i've stressed over US
You knew how it felt like being accused of something you didn't do
You knew how bad it killed me inside
You knew how to understand me
You knew how to let me go a little (-_-)
You knew how to trust me fully ..
You tried to work things out the right way
You didn't think so much about yourself
You didn't think so much about others butting in
You didn't think so much about the 'WHAT IF's'
You didn't assume that i'd possibly just take off and leave you hanging

You knew how many times I tried to make things work

I wish ..

(notrust=nolove.)

so far so good

I know, I know .. I'm slaccckin! Ha.

Too buisy enjoying my winter break before it's back-to-school, again -__- But i've got one more week to enjoy [;

Let's see, I went out A LOT due to the fact the I was in Kalihi for the past 5 days. Lol, I slept over friday and didn't get home 'till today. And must I say, my 'vacation' was hella good :D Did a shit load in that 5 days and i'm glad 'cause i'm somewhat sticking to my new years resolution. YAY! And on top of that, I came home with A new flat screen TV in the living room (Now I can play Wii with a bigger screen ^_^), New speakers, AND! A new desktop computer. Oh gosh! I love my parents oh so much! :D What more can I ask for?! Lol, actually I didn't have to ask; It was all on them this time, haha! So anyway, I've been shopping around the malls lately and i'm getting sick of it. Haha, Seeing the same old shit with different people is so boring! Then again, what girl doesn't LOVE shopping?! ;D

Haha, Oh & I'm finally gonna get Internet without stealing connection from others, tomorrow! BUT, I'm kind of laying off the internet usage because I always like to depend my life so much on the internet when I could be doing something else BETTER right? RIGHT.

Anywho, Gonna get some shut eye. I'm kind of tired of from long day.. Goodnight ♥

'Family Matters'

Currently watching that and it's so dumb to me, seriously! Lol.

Anywho, First blog of '09 but nothing exciting to update on. Boohooo -_-
I just rested, slept, played Wii, & tweaked on MySpace the whole day! Talk about no-lifer, lol. Mhm. Went to my grandma's though for awhile :) Popped leftovers with the little kids & just upload pictures. That's pretty much my day.

Goin' to Kalihi tomorrow & possibly sleep over, HM. Sounds like a plan!

Until then, Peaaace!

GOODBYE '08, HELLLO '09!

What a good start off for the new year ^_^ Someones mowing their lawn & it's fricking 12:14 in the AM, wtf right? HAHAHA ;D Welll, last night was good! Spent the last day of '08 with the fambam & partied for my brother. Yes, his birthday was one New Years Eve, lol! So was my cousins. Anywho, played Wii, popped fireworks and did a good ass worked out with my hands! Haha, Carried Zayla & Izaiah (take turns, btw) & Zayla knew off the back that I was gettin' tired because she told the family "Auty tiyuhd." HAHA, Cute huh? Mmm, but yeah. Just talked stories & ate dinner with the family. Everyone left before 12 ;( But that's alright. Watched a good show with my mother n' father from their window [; HA.

Man, 2008 was filled with so many ups & downs. I can pretty much say i've encountered many things this year that I never thought I would. Eventually, things happen. But all I have to say is that everyone i've spent it with this year made 2008 filled with many many memories that i wont forget. And even if we've drifted, you know you made a huge impact in my life somehow, some way. I love you all! And to everyone else, I hope 2008 was a good year for you all. For now, let's just hope that '09 will be even better! ^_^ Just live life everyday like it's your last! Fxck the drama, just go with the flow (:


Well, I've said what I needed too. As for my NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS? HM! Lol.

- Be good to my parents & make them proud
- Appreciate everything I got in front of me.
- Eat healthy, & lose some pounds ;D
- Get my grades up & keep up my 3.5 + GPA!
- Keep being faithful to MarkAguinaldoAcido!
- Cut down on the swearing.
- Go church EVERY WEEKEND
- Stop being lazy.
- & last but not the least, KEEP MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS!! hahahahaha :D


Aw, I hope '09 will be even bettter :D
As for now all I can say is HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL, be safe, enjoy every day as much as you can, don't let anyone break you, be strong, goood luck, & GOD BLESS <3